Update - Taiwan Trip

Since Dayre were launched, I literally abandon blogger. Using Dayre is so much easier but I just could go back in time to add some photos or text. Well, these few weeks has been really good. Today I'm gonna update about my Taiwan Trip 17 December - 24 December 2013.

Our first day: KUL - HK - TP

The day before I had a quick dinner with Mr. J and it makes me feel unwell at sleep. I thought I could sleep it off and feel better. Meet up with them at the airport and we were all so excited!!

Never thought my nose would look like this. I love this side view of myself. LOL

Our van for the rest of our trip.

First dinner when we landed. 

The hotel we stayed. We get to have discount for December birthday special. There are 5 of us who's birthdate is on Dec. LOL. We got tons of discount!

On this night, I started to felt sick and feel like throwing up. In a second I thought I was pregnant. LOL. But I am sure I am not afterwards. 

新年的murmur

今天师傅问了个问题。他问：“你。。。过后想干什么？” 我摇头说不知道。他说我觉得自己的时间太多了，所以敢这样回答。是这样吗？思考了很久，或许吧。一直以来，自己的日子是过的那么轻松自在。也许妈妈的严厉会被我看成约束，可是那是不懂事。如果，我也能从他们的角度去看待一件事，那我就不会认为那是约束。我以为我是温室里的小花，外人也这么看，我可以挑大梁去上海？不是我不信任自己，是我的脸皮不够厚，万一失败了那我就是另一个笑话。没有把握的事我真的很怕。师傅还说那是因为我有选择，所以我不想去上海。当我没得选的时候，我是硬着头皮也要去。如果生意谈成了，我不去也得去。有自己的事业是值得开心的一件事，也许我把儿女私情看重了，舍不得离开。这样到底是该如何？

新的一年，很多事情要认真的看待了。家人、朋友、伙伴、课业／事业。该放下的就不执着，不伤害／中伤他人的名誉／信誉，不耍小家子气，不去计较别人有没有把你放在眼里，不去探听讨厌的人事物就算是别人提起也无需感兴趣或加以言论，做一些有意义的事充实自己，好好爱身边的每一个人珍惜与他们的缘分。相信时间能证明一切。相信命里有时终须有，命里无时莫强求。相信用自己的能力换来的东西。相信彼此的爱、信任、关怀。太过在意别人是否看重自己／把自己放在眼里真的很痛苦。因为曾经面对到这个问题，然后突然间释怀了。为什么？因为那天跟两位聊到类似这话题，我从两位身上得到的回应结果［ta就是这样的啦］。所以，我释怀了。就这么简单。可想而知，自己的处事态度真的是非常重要。没有事情是好或坏的，是想法使它如此。

男朋友。还是深爱着。经历很多？不多？很难说。他的用心让我佩服。他身边的人真的很爱他。我们所经历的，就好像他家人都一起经历。我们还在一起成长。两个人就是这样，在一起偶尔会有想要一巴掌巴死对方的时候，可是这就是相处。不满的地方当然有，可是时间不对，说了会火星撞地球。一个人还没领悟到某些事，如果有人突然来批评或给评语，这样会被认为挑剔，找打架，找架吵。只要不是非常严重，又何必在意？又不是要一个100分情人，你的好与不好，如果ta爱你，就是爱你。这是我在这段感情中所学到的事。

写了那么久，一点想睡的意思都没有。那杯咖啡真的让我如此痛苦。

A Date

We had a very stressful date today but we manage to get to date!!! Yay!

Summer Break

Going back this early to attend wedding. Stay until after Chinese New Year only come back. My Sydney study life is really easy. I wonder how about next year... my major project. How much I'm gonna spend for it. I can't wait for the wedding, to see the friends, to reunite with my family, to touch the coffee again. I love my life so much. LOL

How did I spent my 6 weeks here with only 1 class per week? Well, I read a lot of book - story books. LOL. Also, articles online about how to be around with people - all kind of people. I believe in life, not everyone around you are friendly or treat you truly. And as who I am, the person who hates betrayal or cannot accept people talking back behind my back especially when we were a team and they are trying to ruin the group, makes me pull out myself or block them from my life. I don't care or wanted to be apart of their life because I admit that I treat my friends truly until they did something to hurt me. There were a few friends that I treated them good, but end up, they are using me. How did I found out? Well, a mutual friend of ours told me to beware of that friend because she was saying something to everyone when I wasn't there. Normally, I won't give a shit. But, I was really upset that, she is the person who said it. We were so close and were good friend. I can't believe she is the one who stab me. So, I have hard time trusting again. I distance myself and never talk to her when it's not necessary. 

The reason I open up because I finally reach a point that I think I have to let it go to make my life happier. Whatever she did I believe that she was young and never think about the consequences. Is not saying that I forgive her, it's me learning how to accept and forget. Not saying that she is forgiven, c'mon, I'm nobody. I make mistake too. We people always forget to be kind to others. Chinese saying '严格待己，宽容待人', but we always do it the opposite way. I guess this is what I've learn during these 6 weeks. Looking at myself and be a better person. 

The Dairy

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写文章

从小学到中学，写作一直是我的强项。从来不怕写不出规定作文的字数，分数也是甲上。后来在高二的时候开始了写部落格的习惯。。嘿嘿。。其实那些回忆都已经删除了。都是一些营养不良的东西。Anyways 直到现在 我们必须要读了一篇又一篇的文章 提出相关的论点 然后quote 相关的作家 然后再写自己的感想 真的很头痛 交了2份报告，我以为我这次死定了。因为临时抱佛脚，资料不是很详细，用两个小时写出来的东西能看吗？结果。。。。。两份报告都拿了个D。不是 ABCD 的 D，是Distinction 的 D。我的朋友很不给脸的‘蛤！你这样可以拿D？！我他妈的才拿C！’ C 是 Credit。 Well... 我能说什么？

再过3个星期又要回家了。别人出国读书，我出国读书。怎么我每隔两个月就回家3个星期啊？这次是回两个月... 呵呵 这是好命到有点不好意思。可能还会去韩国一趟，然后菲律宾过年。真的‘换爽’！其实这次那么早回也是因为要出席婚礼。本来想说不出席了，免得交代一堆事情。可是，这样我会难过觉得遗憾。我想看着他们幸福开心的结婚，出席婚礼代表这给他们满满的祝福。那些解释，过后再打算。毕竟，我们的关系早已升华为家人。

珍惜得来不易的感情。或许现在的我没办法给你要的，但是有一天我可以。时间就是最好的证明。虽然现在的我们不能够在一起，但是每一天早上醒来，我都很感谢有你。因为你每天睡前让我有美好的心情开入睡。这样的爱不是每个人都能办到。再过一阵子吧。我们可以重聚可以相爱。

My Kind of October

Well, I only spent my 2 weeks here as I just came back from Malaysia. Sydney has been so good to me. The relationship is good, I'mm glad that things work fine as long as we don't touch the sensitive area. Spending a lot and it's not even my personal spending damn. I cannot imagine me migrate to this country and work here, living expenses is really pressuring. 

So.. class is good. Social Psychology of Fashion. Seriously, just listen to the name I already freak out because what the hell am I going to do with Psychology?! Skipped the first day class cause I was still in Malaysia, and the assessment already given. I was stress to death as Lara told me that Louise is really strict. So.. I did a lot of research and write a 500 words essay. When you feel like 500 words is an easy task, please come here and write for me. Because every sentence you need to cite and it's like my old life back in Sunway. DAMN! I hate that life! 

The highlight of this month is the Neon Run and Halloween Party. 

The first time of me attending party like this and the first time I actually willingly walk into a club. Yea, I know.. I'm living my life like an old lady. But hey, I really like a quiet and not weed, drugs, crazy scene life... I mean alcohol is fine.... LOL. 

And so... the party ended at 3am. We were so shock because we didn't get enough dance and fun. But we were taking a lot of time outside the club to really talking talking to the friends and taking pictures, you cannot really talk inside the club. Watched a lot of funny moment with all the drunk friends and gossiping. LOL. 

The next day class... yes, we had a randomly small event going on. How cool could it be a school serving champagne and sushi? Well.. we grab the champagne and left. This is what we did. LOL. 

Today 2 November. I have to say, my October ended awesomely. My November started with a very happy funny feeling. Later tonight, I'm going to a house party which held by one of my friend who is a chef. I heard that the food is superb! Can't wait!! LOL.