Anniversary

I wrote this on 27 Dec. The night I did something stupid. It's not even our anniversary. But this is how I felt before it.
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Maybe I need some time to be alone... WHAT AM I SAYING? I AM ALONE ALL THE TIME!

Sleepless. Following Dream?

Sleepless night I guess. I was sleeping, and some sound woke me up. It's really annoying but I can't get back to sleep already. My mind is full of study abroad stuff. New York, new life, being apart again, all alone and stuff like that. It's not like I'm leaving next month. This is just a plan that I really want it to happen, I don't care how much I need to sacrifice. I never hesitate and I am willing to give up something that most of my close friends and even my own mother would never expect. I thought it was the assignment that keeps my mind running, but honestly, is it true that I am worry that much about the assignment? The fact is I have been thinking too much. I've been imagining what is going to happen next, it's not the assignment, the assignment is not the issue. Maybe I am hungry at this hour, I couldn't stand the emptiness in my stomach that making sound to wake me up. Really?! 

I'm not sure if I'm ready to give up everything I have in here now. I am so happy but I feel so unbalance in the same time cause I wanted, always wanted to live/study at the other country to gain experience. I have someone I'm so in love with who's studying at Taiwan and might continue study there for another 2 and a half years. I don't have plan B, I only have plan A, that is finish school at Malaysia, fly to New York and continue. I never thought what if it don't work out. Until now only I think of it. Yea, what if the plan is not going to work? This is like a myth now. WTF?! It's like never gonna get the answer until it happens. FML! I guess I'm not going to sleep any sooner. Sigh. 

Letter For Mr. John

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So, today was family day except we have to bring an outsider to join us. I never want him to be in the gathering but too bad mom don't allow. I don't feel comfortable at all. I am falling sick and now I know why, cause I didn't drink water for 2 days. Seriously?! How ridiculous I could be? If hubby read this, I'm so done. XP

We had our movie session at One Utama at 6pm and aunt mixed up the 635pm movie. We missed the front part, and also, another movie session on tomorrow as well. Hubby said we are watching for revenge. haha! Today we watch Petaling Street Warriors and tomorrow we are going to watch You Are The Apple Of My Eye, this time without him. WHAT?! He already watch this, why want to waste our money? *evil side of hillary appear!*

Since I'm not feeling well, I'm going to bed earlier cause I don't want to make it worst. Hubby went for some activity at the centre part of Taiwan for 2 days, so no Skype or iChat. Chiao~

Movie Marathon

We planned to finish our report on this day. So, all my group members are here and getting ready to die with it. Then all of the sudden when we were having lunch at papa-rich someone suggest that we need to watch Twilight, I told them I already watch the other day, the completed version and it still in my computer. They were suggesting that we might be able to watch it on my tv since it's built in USB. DANG!!! Since then, we've been watching 5 movies straight away. Twilight Breaking Dawn, Paranormal Activities 2, Paranormal Activities Tokyo version, Friends With Benefits, Immortal, and No String Attach. How crazy? How about the report? Well, we only use 15 minutes to arrange the work and split up the task. Seriously, most of the time was watching movies and live stream of some korea event from Singapore. 

Miss my hubby so much and he was having a not so good day because of his headache and some random girl likes his bad-ass wall post for no reason. ahaha. He was so serious about that and it's driving him nuts. Talked to hubby almost everyday, and I feel like it's weird and uncomfortable if I didn't talk to him. He is grumpy little old man, and I love him so much! 

New York. Dream.

I've made a decision. I've been hesitating about the place of my further study. Definitely USA, but which part of it? I've always wanted to study at FIDM, then a friend of mine introduce me to FIT and also Parsons, I never thought of that seriously, but, fashion city is New York, why I never want to look at there? When I was younger, I wanted to live in New York because I watch a christmas movie and I saw snowing over there. I told my mom that I wanted to go there. Now, as a grow older and I'm so scared of cold. I love the weather in Los Angeles. It's comfortable and more okay for me. 

We've been discussing about the issue, and mom ask me to do a proper proposer for her to refer. Today, I was wandering around at the bookstore and looking at the NYC map, suddenly I was like, why would I still thinking about where to go? I can go visit at LA anytime cause someone is there, but not in NYC! I decided to go there. So, I got myself a target. I want to study there and fulfill my dream. The only problem now.... VISA!! Seriously!! I got black listed twice, I want it badly and I hope this time I can get it. 

What about hubby? Seriously, I thought of this and it drive me crazy. This means we are further apart and the timezone is the issue. Two years of study, are we going to figure out? I wonder. I do hope we can work out and be happily ever after. Just go with the flow I guess.

Hectic Schedule.

I'm still having a mid term test going on and also a 3 days flea market things to handle. That's the assignment. It's so busy and driving us crazy. Yesterday, we've spend our whole day on doing photo shooting and pricing all the stuff we going to sell and also design the price tag. Whole day and rush all the stuff out. Now we are still pending with the logo, and poster and we are done! I appreciate all the corporation of the teammates, even though there's fashion week going on and we seriously wanted to attend it, but we sacrifice the time and complete our project. I feel good about being productive. Life is meaningful. 

Later on, I mean after class, I'm going to pick up Johnny's iPhone 4 at the shop. If the class ends early, I'm going to The Curve as well. I want to get some stuff to decorate my room. Some book shelf for my magazines and books, some storage, some frames, some board to stick my photos and frame up pictures, maybe puzzle since mom is not going to shop for painting. I want a New York City night view painting. I wonder where to get it. 

These few days, me and hubby talk lesser and lesser as both of us are busying with our own stuff. Sometimes he is free but I'm the one who's busy all the time. 3 days straight, I didn't text or call him but we only chat less than 2 hours on Skype before sleep and he's  so tired already. I feel so bad to keep him waiting, I thought I can go on December, but I can't. Seriously... I hope we can spend our anniversary and my birthday together. Just a dream. =(

Assignment. Exam.

Every Thursday, when I end my class I will let myself relax for few days. So, my Friday, Saturday and Sunday is like my off day and I'm not going to do anything. I regret of doing this, cause I've been wasting time. I could have done so many homework during these days and I can have more time preparing my mid term exam. Seriously, I screwed up. But who cares?! Ahaha!

Happy Birthday To Amanda

11.11.11

Well, someone said that was ‎11－11－11 ＝ 玩完－玩完－玩完, it was funny, yet sarcastic. Many people get married this day, many people went to register this day, many people propose on this day. But, some people said it was a single day. Everyone come out and celebrate it together. Cheers for single! LOL. To  me, it is a normal day. But to others, it might be a really special day, or unforgettable day, or normal day as well. LOL

Today, was Amanda 20th birthday. We had a great time celebrating it and the girls are really crazy. Laugh at stupid stuff and say a lot of ridiculous crazy stuff as well. We did our homework while waiting the time to pass. Even though we are at the coffee shop, yet, we didn't keep our voice low, we chat and make stupid funny comment and laugh like crazy. We are really productive, waste no time and we plan for next meeting. I had so much fun with the girls and I am sure I'm gonna miss these time when I'm abroad if that's gonna happen. Mom text me and asked me what time I'm going home, that's means time to go home. After sending all of them, I reached at 12am. It's a hectic day. I wear my heels for the whole day. Seriously, I need to be better. XD

Jeff said I look like mistress. WTF?!

It was a rainy day, I went half wet when I get to my class. My Birkenstock went all wet. I'm cursing. My mood was good, then gone bad. Because I am afraid that we have no time to spend together. It was an uncertain thing for me to go visit, it depends. Everything makes me down, the rain the thing...  It's my birthday, our anniversary. But, we will be all alone. How sad.

Our 10th Month

Can't believe it. We actually had been together for 10 months. Two month stick together like a twins and 8 months apart. I never expect us to work out, but we did it so well. The truth is, the longer we've been dating, the less words I can describe my feelings towards him. I just simply love him that much and nothing more I can say. Recently, there's a lot of the pressure from mom. He is going crazy, I am going insane and I thought that's it for us. Usually when mom issue came out, things won't work anymore. It just won't. It's either he gave up or I gave up. I felt so bad to stressed him up, but he took it nicely and more patiently. The way he react it's really giving me a lot more confidence and calm me down. If you finally found someone who gave you so much love and faith, why would you give up that easily? Every time I broke down, I think of him and the funny things he said and made. Always cheer me up. My pistachio! =)

Wasn't having a good mood just now. I don't know why, all of the sudden mood swing. We was chatting, and then suddenly, I felt very moody and down, don't even want to talk much. I don't want to throw my bad mood on hubby, so I decide to be quiet. I can't explain what happen cause I don't even know what is the problem.

Tan Baby!!

Nightmares

These few days I've been staying up too late (around 3-5am) and waking up too late (around 11 to 12 pm). Seriously, I'm like just coming back from USA and having jet lack. I felt so much negative energy around me, since the day we watched the horror movie. I think. I went to bed, I think so many things, then I have a dream, wake up with really bad mood. The most ridiculous thing is, I always dream about hubby cheating on me or going to cheat on me. Why never me cheating on him? I'm that bad meh? I felt so bad for hubby cause he will be so speechless and come and slam my butt for all these nonsense. But hey, I do feel insecure with all these things. I'm scare one day he might left me for this seduction when he sees the real world. What if I'm the one who can't stay because of those seductions? LOL. 

The parent is coming back tomorrow. Well, I was planning to have study/working group at my place so we can relax. But, since they are back, I need to clear the house and let them get rest. So many things to do and I realize I haven't do the listing stuff. So dead! Have to finish everything today. I wonder if the sketch book is going to hand on this Tuesday or not.

Hubby taught me that I can have a coffee before I work out. It helps to burn fats faster. Baby, I'm so sorry to have those ridiculous nightmares. It's really crazy and madness. When I get up I feel like killing myself for thinking too much. LOL. Looking back at hubby's birthday photo, we didn't even have a couple photo together and there's not much photo actually. So sad. Please take more when it's my birthday. I would love to see it again and again. 

Happy Deepavali

Happy Deepavali people. 

Went to do my assignment today with Kevin and Chloe. They helped me a lot! Thanks guys. It was freaking jam today because of the holiday. Spend some time chatting while grabbing our lunch and gossip a little bit as usual. 

Then we start working. I have to give some example about the high-end, high-street and low-end retail outlet. So, we worked this way, me and C talk to the sales person and keep him/her busy with us while Kevin snap photo in the shop and all the details I asked him to do. Well, his iphone 4 had upgraded to ios 5, and he can snap photo with the side button and act like he is looking at something else while holding the phone. OMG!!! He is so pro for being a paparazzi! Seriously haha! Thank you so much! I treat them for Starbucks for helping. 

I think, I'm gonna meet them tomorrow and the day after tomorrow as well. This week, I am so busy! With all the hang outs and field trip. Actually, the hang out is because of the field trip as well cause I need my babi[s] for help. They are so lovely!

Hang out whole day and I missed my hubby. This is what I need to sacrifice. I can't hang out with both because hubby is not around. I miss him so much but I can't text him that much because I will get scold and ask to go home. LOL. I truly wish hubby is here. I wish I can go to meet him soon. I wonder if he having good time now. By the way, I've collected the whole collection of Lauren Conrad and Hilary Duff's book! Yay!!!  

Bought some stationery for myself, and a book at Popular Bookstore. I'm so happy when I got them! So, we went to Kenanga Wholesale City yesterday with the group of 8. It was for the field trip and then, I was so stupid to buy things immediately at the first shop. Well, is not because of the first shop actually, it's because of me being so naive and listen to the sales person said they we design by themselves and having a factory at China. That's so fake and after I bought it only realize how stupid I am. There goes my RM100. Some more!!! I am the buyer for our group! Like seriously! How am I going to face my group if I make another mistake like this?! The buyer should let other people to do. Dang myself.

To the man,

Hi baby, I miss you everyday. If I say this is it, will you kill me? XD

Well, today we didn't talk much cause I don't want to wake you up so early since you finally got the opportunity to sleep. How was your sleep by the way? =) I'm waiting you to come home, in the mean time I am blogging. duh. I'm going to read the new book I bought home, I am so happy to collect all of them! I hope you are here so you can here me nag about how AWESOME they are. haha. I know you love hearing me saying the 'AWEEEEEESOMEEEEE' in my way. You just love seeing me doing stupid stuff and make you laugh like a kid. That's the thing I love the most. Seeing you laugh. I'm so happy when I make you laugh, cause you brighten up my day as well. Did I say I love you today? I love you hubby. I cherish you and so happy to be with you. Although I love being ridiculous sometimes, but I am still deeply in love with you everyday. More and more. Hope to see you soon. Love.

Field Trip Fashion Advertising

Today I supposed to be having holiday. But we have class replacement for the Depavali Holiday. We have a field trip about advertising class and need to do the market observation for those retail store. Well, today we didn't do it quite much as we eat and talk all day. I have my own idea which outlet to do, and going to do it day by day. 

I miss my hubby boy. He wasn't feeling well these days. I am so worry about him. Silly baby. I'm so in love with him cause he is my silly boy! Ahahahahaha!

J, a letter for you. 

My hubby doesn't feel well and he refuse to rest. He opens his skype using his ipad and plug the earphone and insist me to watching him nap. He don't let me off the skype cause he wanted to listen to my fan which can makes him sleep. How could this silly baby be so cute? I love him to death. Maybe the word I used is too extreme. But this is how I feel. I can live on my own, my life would be normal to be without him, I won't die with or without him. But with him in my life, everything is perfect, is complete. He is the soulmate. I wouldn't say this in front of mom because she thinks is nonsense cause I'm only 23 years old, she thinks how would a only 23 years old girl will think the guy is already her soulmate while she haven't see the world.  Well, who knows if I never try.

Went to aunt house at Puchong today, spend the whole day with them. Miss them so much. Had so much fun with the precious little monkey. Well, I know hubby have a rough day with his vacation stuff and also the neighbor renovation stuff. I felt bad for him cause he need to take care of everything in the same time he got no enough rest time.

J, your letter. I love you.

J, another one for you.

Unproductive Day

Went out for a lunch and movie date with Chloe and Kevin today. And that's it.

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I'm kidding, but this is really what I've done for today. The plan was suppose to be waking up early, do the laundry, drop the coffee machine at The Curve or Sunway Pyramid, then stop at aunty house for the money and went to hubby house for my charger. But when I wake up today at 9 I feel like doing nothing at all but sleep back. Is not I'm still sleepy, I was awake but I am so not happy that these few days I've been waking up so early, that's why I want to sleep back. I told hubby that's a sleep revenge. haha. Grab a lunch with C and K and went home. Do nothing at all, by the time I leave the car park at One Utama, I felt regret, cause I can do some grocery shopping at Jusco which is way more cheaper at Cold Storage. Dealing with the hard disc now which i just realize it's dead. Not in a good mood now...

Sick

I was suppose to blog yesterday but suddenly the mood is gone. Today was the quiz and presentation day. I woke up really early and went to Starbuck to study. 4 hours and the parking ticket cost me RM10.50, seriously!! And the I flunk the quiz. FML!!! Anyways, the presentation was perfect! We have a really great teamwork and I appreciate it.

So surprise when I knew hubby bought me an instant camera. What makes me more surprise was he got the exact model I want! How weird is that?! It's so sweet and I'm so happy. I told him I want to get a instant camera and ask him to do the pricing survey for me cause everyone said it's cheaper at Taiwan. But I didn't tell him what model I want. He is simply amazing! I miss him so much, especially I think back among this few days is the first day we meet back and talk like crazy back in a year. So crazy and who would have thought about it?! Two more months, that will be the first anniversary. Seriously, this is so fast. I'm still waiting for the respond. I want to go celebrate my birthday and our anniversary with him! I really hope mom will be ok with it.

Book Fair. Visit

Actually I'm super duper tired. I almost done with the Styles and Trends assignment. Tomorrow morning going to continue at school since other friends have the stuff. Another assignment is the marketing research thingy. Changed topic and I hope we can do it a.s.a.p cause they want to catch up a movie.

I miss my hubby so much. Well today! There's a freaking big book fair at Cyberjaya called Big Bad Wolf Book Fair which sells so many books up to 90%. I was so excited since aunt ask me to join them first then only go visit Jeff. It was so great! I got myself 13 books and it only cost me RM110. Is like RM10++ for a book. I drive from 8 in the morning until 530 in the evening. I was exhausted and took a nap when I get home. Start doing the assignment until now cause I was surfing and slowly doing it. Hubby said my face looks very 'hangus' because of the assignment. Well YEAH! Obviously! But, never mind, tomorrow we as a group is going to finish it!

Hubby, I miss you a lot. And you look so charming after you get your hair cut. SOOOOO freaking charming, and I'm going to melt. It's true! Believe me! I'm so crazy about you. I'm so sorry for being such a drama queen, you know, people stress out when doing assignment and some more don't get the right stuff. It's really annoying and suffering. But thank you for being there for me, even though you are not physically here, but I am happy that you willing to spend time on me ((pretend that you are not playing ipad or watching movie)). LOL. I'm going to see you tomorrow. I know you will smack me if you are still in Malaysia cause I told you I'm going to bed but I'm writing at here instead. Ok la. My eyelids are very heavy now. I think I could sleep on the table anytime. haha. Love you baby! Wish you have a nice day after reading this. 

Gathering

Today I meet up with my babi[s]. Only these people show up cause the other went for the convocation. Today is also the Diploma holder's convocation. I didn't attend cause I required to send to my house. Haven't seen them for a long time. Miss them so freaking much. Seriously. Then most of them went home after the lunch and left Chloe and Kevin Ho. We went to Coffee Bean for another round, Kevin ho literally play his phone from the beginning to the end of our chat and he left half way to meet his friends, me and Chloe continue and grab our dinner together. But before that, we went for a quick shopping. I simply grab some clothes and leave. Well, I regret for not trying and checking any of these clothes, cause some of them don't look good and two of them was the wrong item. I choose the long sleeves and the salesperson get me the short one. I mean it's not that bad, but I love the long sleeves. Damn! It's not exchangeable some more. This is my day. Sucks for the clothes and  awesome for the gathering.

Slave For 4 Hours

So, I got my table installed in the room. I've promised that I'm gonna blog more often after I have a proper table for my imac. What's going on these days? I have no idea. I think it's great cause everything seems alright. School starts two weeks ago, things turns out alright, I got 3 more subjects left and I am free to go.. WAIT! I still have an internship to do. Well, I've been planning to get myself a part time job, but all I do these days was thinking, not doing it. Time is getting lesser and lesser. I'm hesitate and scare to face my future. What the hell I'm going to do after I done all these stuff.

Hubby went to his friend's birthday party. Soon, he will be having his final. Are we going to be apart again? He's taking his master course and I'm going to continue my fashion study. I'm in love with the course, and I definitely want to go study abroad! Once in a life time. I want to experience it and make my life wonderful. Sigh. I wonder if I can get into the fashion school in LA or not. Still communicating with the people over there.

I'm so tired after installing everything. I'm gonna bath and rest for a little while. Tomorrow gonna meet up with the babi[s]. Before that, I'm gonna get mom's car to wash and go to aunt's house. So tired.

The Boyfie's Family Dinner

It's been really long time I didn't write and hubby is going crazy about it. Well, Yesterday was hubby's sister's birthday. I wanted to celebrate with her after I wishes her a belated birthday at Facebook. I was thinking maybe the other day but we can fix a day first. The she ask me to go for the family dinner tonight. I haven't buy her any present and I'm going to get it on tomorrow. Yikes. So, we met up. The dinner was great. The only not so great stuff was two person missing. I miss my hubby, and Ben also. Both of them are not here,
no more fun.

So many stuff still need to deal with. I'm not going to write so much. But I was having a good time with his family. I surprise myself that I can hang out with them without hubby. Awesome! XD

Hubby, no letter. I'm so tired. XP But I love you so much. Every time I spend time with them, I miss you more. Hope to see you soon!

i miss u..:(

Too Early

Mom came back today. I went to pick her up from the airport. All the way home, we've been talking. She asked if John and I are official, I said yea. She said it's too early. My point is, I'm happy being with him, he makes me happy, why not? Yea, now we don't have to worry about the financial problem or whatever stuff. We are happy cause both of us are still student. Why not let us be? I told mom, is not like I'm gonna marry him now. There are lots of conflict between mom and me. There are lots of different points we have and we don't agree with each other. She been through a lot and I should have listen to her. But, I believe in John. He is not that bad as she said. Yea, it's true! Too early! You are too early to judge someone who are going to have a lot of potential. You just simply judge him from his cover. Just because of those stupid feng shui thing, you said he is not good. I don't believe that. In your eyes, no one is good. I believe in him and I know he is the best, he is changing and proving to everyone now. I will be there to see him change and help him through. He is the one I choose, he is the one I wanted to be with, if we didn't end up together, that's our destiny, that's our choice. I will never regret. You said I don't know how to choose, really? Maybe he is not that good, but that's for now only. You never know how he will become in the future. He just need a guide and experiences. Why not give him a chance to prove? He makes me happy, doesn't it matters? It's not like I'm giving up my study and just focus on him. I did good in my academic, and I am happy now. We support each other, we are happy. That matters! To me, dating is not a bad thing. Whatever people do, you have to comment. When people agrees with you, you said that person don't have his own opinion, when people don't agree with you, you said something else. So, what do you want now? 

John, your letter.

It's happening all over again. Sigh. I think you are over reacted while people are talking. You always assume things, Is like everyone wants something from you. You always think other people are bad, who is the person you think is good? A nerd who always listen to his mom and listen to you? Because he has his master and you think he is good? What you see now is not going to last forever. I know things happens for reason and I never deny something you said were true. The different is, you think that's forever and I think that will changed. You can't always judge a book by its cover. I'm not going to fight anymore, cause I will prove you wrong.

sigh. what a night. I hope hubby is here. I needed his hugs so badly. I think he will need mine as well after reading this. I felt bad for him, I felt bad for my mom as well. Because of me, mom thinks that the man I love is not good enough for me. Because of me, hubby will thinks that mom hates him. I felt like I'm the worst person in the world cause I've hurt their feelings.

Sober

Alright, the previous post was wrote by me when I'm a little bit drunk. Now, I'm totally clear. I slept for only 2 hours and get up. I know this shit will happen! I knew it!I have to have that person with me to keep me sleeping, but too bad he is not here with me. =(

iMac is really heavy duh! Or I've become weaker? I carry it from the office to my rom and my face was red  after that. Seriously. I think I depending on hubby too much. When he was here, he will be the one who carry all those stuff. I miss my boy. I've been happily downloading songs, movies, and stuff from the website hubby gave me. GOSH!!! It's so good that I can watch so many movies. Just finish [Friends With Benefits] This movie was great. I didn't even know Justin Timberlake has such a great body and Mila Kunis, she is petite! They both look perfect together. LOL. The movie is just great! Recommended!!

I'm gonna get myself a desk soon from ikea. I can't put my imac on the wooden square thingy forever or mom will kill me. Got to go to bed now, get up early in the morning and have breakfast with dad. Mom is coming back soon.

Hubby, I miss you a lot. We've been anti social for some time. We need some quality time already. I love you!

I'm So Drunk

As the title, I'm so drunk. Actually, I'm not really drunk but I'm high.  Dad came back and we had dinner together with his newly brought wine. Well, now, I wish hubby is here instead of the house guest. I wish dad is chatting with hubby instead of him. I miss hubby so much and I just read his blog. SO freakin cute. I miss you so much too baby. I wish you are here hubby so I can hug you and talk to you. There will be so much funny stuff I will tell you when I'm almost drunk. I miss you a lot.

吵架后

一样的事情，每一次都要重复就很没意思了。不是吗？今天，是自己最倔的一次。不是故意要闹要斗。只是，有些话说了却听不进。吵架的重点并不是往往不是因为为了那些无谓的事情而吵。是因为态度。我是那种一遇到问题就马上解决，有什么不高兴不愉快就马上讲，当下解决就好了。吵架不翻旧账是很重要的事。有些情侣越吵越了解彼此，有些就根本就不吵，可是一吵就翻旧账。这样就会越吵越凶，越多旧账可以翻。这样又何必呢？如果可以的话，我希望自己的另一半能把问题马上解决。吵架并不事件坏事。当然不吵是最好。情侣之间哪有可能会不吵架？有的是，一个可以包容脾气很火爆的暴龙的傻瓜。这样，怎样都吵不起来。potong steam

我们的秘密

今天颓废了一整天，说要打扫，结果只换了床单而已。还有吵架！明天要珍惜时间，好好利用啦！！

I really thought there's no next time as you've promised sincerely.

But you break it. 

Last Paper.

The day we had our vacation at Lang Tengah

You guys have no idea how much weight I've gain while hubby is back. OMFG!!! Look at the arms. I'm like a pregnant women already. We ate like normal. BUT the only thing that's different is we had supper almost every single night. Seriously. Supper is really the killing machine! Now, I'm so suffering cause I'm on diet. I need to get back my two months ago figure. Tak boleh tahan!!!!!

Tomorrow will be the last day for my final. Yay! After exam will be our after party for the charity event. After that! HOLIDAY!!!! For a week. I can't wait to get my schedule now, so that I can apply for a job at Dr Cafe. 

Hey baby,

I miss you so much. You are coming home tomorrow finally. I miss you a lot. I know you just went off for a few days only, but you know when I couldn't see you, I felt weird. Is like the whole atmosphere doesn't feel right. But, thank god your friend brought laptop along so you can skype with me. Remember to thanks your friend baby!!! Well, after tomorrow I will be busy with the househole stuff. Need to clean up my house or else mom is going to nag me. I was suppose to write a very long post and lock the post up. But, never mind. I lost the feeling already. So that's that. I think I will bring my camera tomorrow and capture my new college fun life. 

Before we left the island

Miss that moment.

I got to continue my study now. Even though is really easy, but still I have to put some effort on it. 

Last Project!

Finally I'm done doing the research book. Can you believe it? I did it in a day! Seriously, the lecturer is going to kill me if she knows about this. I'm going to focus on the exam tomorrow. Hubby is having his camping thingy from today. I mean Wednesday. Until Friday night. I think these few days he will be freaking busy and never ever gonna look at me. =( *drama queen* But he is going to stay outside for a day. You know what? I've been a very good girlfriend for a long time, I won't control this or that. Then, I realized that I start doing/feeling something weird. I don't want my hubby to wear singlet when he is alone, I don't like other female creatures to come near him anymore (except nga tao), I used to be the very generous other half. After he went back, I'm starting to be a control freak. Don't let him eating too much of Gummy Bears, candy bla bla bla. SHIT!!! What's wrong with me!? But I can see that someone is really having fun making me feel jealous. I don't like it. I don't like to be a jealous person. I personally thinks that my hubby is quite attractive to some female creatures. That's why the alert is on. ISH!!!!! No likey!!!!

Anyways, hubby, I miss you a lot. Now that Jeff went into the camp, I'm all alone. (Please ignore the other person in the house). I'm so happy that I'm a very efficiency girl. Today, aunt had been telling me so much things about Amway, and I think I should go for some motivation speech. These days, I felt so demotivate cause you went back to Taiwan, and all I think about was how pity I am. lol. I have to be a better person for you. So, if time is enough for me, I might go to the meeting at night. Alright, I'm off to bed now. I'm so tired. Love you so much!!!

Today's exam was ok. I thought both of them were going to be very hard, but turns out it was pretty easy. So I did okay at the exam.

Last night, I had a nightmare that makes me cried. WTF?! I seldom have this kind of dream as in I'm quite a tough people and I'm not really that fragile and scare of anything except cockroaches. ew... As usual, I wake up and I want to get some warm from the other side, then only I realize he had back to Taiwan. So, I had the nightmare, but I cried because he is not there. I thought he will be there when I had a nightmare. He always do. So thats the story.... I know, wtf right?!

After the exam I went back home and my head start annoys me. Headache la... So, what's app with hubby for a little while and went to bed. He went to see his doctor right after class as he said his neck is killing him. So I can sleep longer while waiting him to come home. By the time he gets back, I'm still napping and never want to wake up even though I saw the message. I was too sleepy and then I fainted for 45 mins. LOL. I still can't really sleep like no tomorrow since hubby is back and waiting for me. BUT. When I got up, he went to sleep. Never mind, my turn to wait. I miss him so much! More than ever. Since he got back, I miss him more and crazy. =(

Gonna start doing my research book now. Tomorrow will fetch Jeff to his camp and be forever alone. 

Exam Week For The 3rd Semester

I'm officially having my exam week now. After hubby boy left, I've non stop doing my final project and also study for my final exam. After this week, it will be my holidays for only 1 week. I am so keen on looking for a job near my house. At Dr Cafe. After this week, I'm going to clean up my house, my room, everything!! Then, I'm going to study about Dr Cafe and ask for the job. Need to have some saving to fly to Taiwan spend time with hubby.

Today was the first day of the exam. It was okay. I don't spend much time on studying this subject, compare with Sunway, this is piece of cake. Seriously, is not me wanting to show off, is their exam only stands 20% to 30% of 100% average marks. And there's not much to read, as the lecturers are so kind to us. =) I got 3 more subjects to go. After tomorrow, 2 subjects in a roll.... I will be free.. for 2 seconds. Cause I need to fetch my brother to the camp and also complete my Contemporary History research book. Yea, the research book has been assigned from the first day of class, now, the last week of class, I don't even look at it yet. Good student.

Anyways, I saw someone is improving himself. He is more aggressive now towards his own life. He wanted to spend his time by doing some meaningful stuff and keep on upgrading himself. For example, sign up for a English Course. This is so good! So proud of him. Non-stop learning new stuff and improving ourself is a really good start. Baby/hubby! I'm so proud of you!!! You are so going to be a better man in the future!!!! Muah muah muah!!! Love you so freaking much!!!!

US

No matter how fun it is, we still have to live our life. I definitely miss our time together, yes, it is hard for now but maybe later our life will be smoother and better. Who knows? I hope so!

Today, I'm going to stay in the house for the whole day cause tomorrow is the final exam week. Also, assignment due date as well. But, if you sees me know, I'm still hanging there and do nothing, no, I do something but in a very slow motion. I'm so lazy. I think I'm love sick now. So, whatever I do, is like not in the mood. Baby suggest a very good idea to me. He said whenever I think of watching movie, we can just share screen and watch it together. LOL. Good idea baby.

This Wednesday I'm going to fetch Jeff to his camp for the National Service. So, the third semester end just like this. How fast is it? Hubby came back and went back. Time pass so fast. Now I'm scared. Freaking out now. I'm force to grow up and handle everything already, not under mom's protection. Soon, I will be leaving from the comfort zone and look for my own way. Now, I wish I could never grow up. sigh.

Alright! I have to stop worrying about all these stuff. Focus on the study and assignment first. Wish me luck!

So, hubby really left to Taiwan already. It's a very hard moment. Cause usually I'm with him all the time. I miss him so much. I was so emotional and I cried all the way from his house to mine. All the way, I was thinking back about the time we were together. What we did. What we said. What we laughed. What we argued. Two months of honey moon, just ends like this. Me no likey. T_T

What I've did today

1. Went to Kota Damansara to collect stuff.

2. Went to Bangsar then Mid Valley then KLCC for a heels.

3. Went to do grocery shopping.

4. Chat with hubby. 

Well, the feeling is like back to December where both of us just fell in love for each other. The feeling is fresh. I think we should have do this more often. LOLOLOL!!! I'm totally kidding. I don't like separating! Even though there are still times we need to do so. It's so hard after spending time longer. Anyways, I hope we will grow stronger and better. I'm so in love with this man.

What I'm Going To Miss

- Your charming smile

- Your hugs
- Your kiss
- Your strong arms that can hold me so tight until I crack my bones. XP
- Your coffee in the morning after I woke up
- Your laugh..

and everything about you. 

I'm Back! Finally.

Well, since the day hubby came back, my blog is start dying slowly. Then it dead! LOL. I'm just kidding. So, I've been skipping our  6th, 7th, and 8th monthiversary posts. Actually, there's quite a lot of things happen during these time. By the day he came back, I was really not used to it. He was so cold. I mean he totally ignored me. Well, he is not in purpose because after I've spend time with him for a whole day, I understand why he ignored me. He was so busy with his family stuff. There are tons of stuff waiting for him to complete and his parents always ask him to do this and that. And during those days, I wasn't really happy cause I really miss him a lot and I couldn't spend time with him. Also during that time, our relationship was still hiding from my side of family. Finally, after meeting more times with hubby's side family, after all the misunderstanding stuff had been explained and solve, mom agreed about us. Yet, she doesn't want me to fall too deep. Anyways. After all the bad days, finally we had our great one. We spent time quality time on a trip to Lang Tengah. We had great moment. We really had learned more stuff about each other. Then, it's the time he leave. On today. A week before, I cried suddenly before sleep. I told him I don't want to cry on the day he leaves. So, I kept my promise on today. I didn't cry. We hugged each other really hard and say goodbye. No kissing cause the parents is here. Too shy to do so. LOL. That wasn't that hard I thought. Then, when we reach home, the parents left for breakfast with other relatives. I was there with his sister and we were talking about him. There's the good and the bad about him. But still he is the guy I fall deeply in love with. I was sitting at the living room chatting with his sis and playing with his dog. Suddenly I went into his bedroom, and that time is the time I start feeling emotional. Cause only then I realize he is really left to Taiwan and no one will hugs me or suddenly hugs me on my back when I was using the laptop. I quickly told his sis I'm leaving and my tear was falling by the time I get on the car. Seriously. I felt so emotional. 

..to be continue. Calling my hubby now.

One word. Sigh.

Hi baby.

You have no idea how much joy you've brought me. Everyday ever since we've been together. So many ups and downs we've been through, so many unforgettable moments. Every time, I want to take pictures of us just to make me feel better when you back to Taiwan. I am going to put our photos in my room on my wall so you could be the last person I see before sleep and the first person I see when I open my eyes.

Soon, we are going for a trip to the beach. I'm so happy about it and the most happiest thing is I don't have to lie about it. I'm so happy that we can spend such quality time being together. During these times, I know you even more, and also your family. I love you so much hubby. Few days more will be our 8 monthiversary and we are going to celebrate with my mom and brothers since mom and Johnny is going back and Jeff is still here. Celebrate it before we left to Lang Tengah. LOL. I'm just kidding. I Love you. Good night. Gonna continue my work. 

My cute little man. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

I'm so in love with this man!!!!

He left to Sabah for a 4 days 3 nights trip with his family. I'm here for my assignments and also my mom and brother is coming back soon. So much things for me to do yet there are so little time. But I can't blame other people cause my time management sucks big time. LOL.

By the time he gets back, I think we are not going to see each other for few weeks... because of my mom. again. Can you believe it? I'm 23 years old. Is not like I'm dating a gangster or rubbish. Just don't get it. After I've explained, still she wouldn't listen. Never gonna fight or talk about it anymore.

Busy with those sketches and design. I really wonder what courses am I taking now. I know I shouldn't be complaining too much as a student, but I'm taking marketing course, even though is fashion marketing but still I need to draw a lot. WTH?! I seriously need a trip. Beach, sun, san, sea, and love~ I wonder if I can survive through this course. It's really freaking me out semester by semester. I'm not a quitter but I do chicken out sometimes. =(

I miss you already.

我们往往在失去时才明白自己曾经拥有的东西是这么美的；however, 当我们能够拥有一样东西时，我们才会明白自己从前失去一些什么。

谈过几次恋爱，曾经强迫自己去当别人的完美女友。成功了却失去了自己。当把自己找回来了却失去了男友。有时候，把对方想的过于完美当必须和他一起相处的时候就会发现他并没有那么完美。所以，不要要求太高。要不然会很失望。谈每段感情都非常认真，有时心想是不是太过于认真所以被[吃死死]了？被对方看死自己会不舍、bla bla bla... 虽然告诉自己不要那么认真了，可是，别人是无辜的。总会有一个人会发现到我的用心，珍惜我的爱吧？！终于被我遇到了。与其说是他暗恋我，不如说是我们从以前到现在都没有忘记过彼此。

他是那个我永远都不会忘记的人。不知道为什么，他的名字在我的记忆里一直存在。他不是那个容易让人忘记的人。那次在中学遇到他过后，名字更加深刻。偶尔他的名字，模糊的样子会出现在脑海里。因为心里的不甘？哈哈。就是很记恨他对我的冷漠。在中学的时候，我算是很出名的人叻！看到他的到来我很兴奋，因为是小学同校的。上前跟他打招呼表示友好，竟然请我吃柠檬！然后就很不爽这个人了。谁知道，这么多年以后竟然会爱上他。找他算旧账的时候，他说他忘了这件事。我想我太执著了。所以不曾把他忘了。哈哈。爱上他，是一件非常浪漫又可以增长知识的事。爱上他，因为他的成熟稳重吸引了我。更爱他，因为他的耐心包容感动了我。有时候自己是故意找渣，他还可以很有耐心的解释。可能他会忍不住脾气炸开，可是他还是会事后道歉再解释。对我，他真的很有这种耐性和能耐。他很体贴，体贴到让我真的很无地自容。我的一个动作一个眼神他就知道我在打什么主意。而我就很白目，需要他的提点或者是过了一段时间才会发现他的异样。很感激他所做的一切。所以很珍惜这段感情。我知道妈妈不喜欢我们在一起，因为当中有一些误会。只是，现在我真的很开心。我只想现在。未来还有一段时间，只要我没有影响到学业我认为一切都很好。现在只要有时间，我只想和他腻在一起。这段感情中，双方一起付出感情真的会比较好。大家会比较珍惜彼此。

亲爱的，我想念你了！你知道只有我在想你的时候才会有那么多感想的吧？ I love you.

Spending lots of quality time with the man and his friends and family. They were all friendly and nice. Not to mention all the misunderstanding/awkward moment. Things are perfectly fine. Too bad, someone would never listen to my explanation. Anyways, time will prove everything. I don't need to talk much about it.

This week, I spend my time with the babi[s].

On this week, I had celebrated John's birthday.

Vince's birthday. Too bad I forget to take picture of the cake.

and Kevin Ho's birthday.

These 3 guy's birthday is very near. Glad to have the time to hang out with the babi[s]. Also, hubby brought me to somewhere although I don't like those place but I did enjoy the moment with him except for the second day. == Talking about it, I feel so sorry to hubby cause I know it's not his fault but I purposely make everything complicated and difficult for him. I felt so bad and pity for him. So much love for him!! Greatest guy ever. Seriously! Compare with others he is the best.

Happy Birthday To You

Muaksssss!!!!! hahaha. Happy birthday to you my man! I'm so in love with you and wish you a very happy  happy birthday! I'm so sorry that I could not give you a surprise birthday but maybe few days later I can give you the perfect outing. Due to the financial crisis of mine, I'm not going to buy you anything to be honest. I don't really know where my money all gone. I'm seriously have no clue about it. I'm such a mess and dummy. Sigh, is this what a girlfriend does? I doubt that. But anyways, I promise things will be better. Like a lot more better! I miss you and I wish I'm there. =) It's your big day. I can't show any sad face or whatever negative. I love you! Happy birthday~

Fun day

I had lots of fun with them. They are a little bit cray cray but still they are very fun. Though, this kind of fun have to be control cause is not really appropriate to be having lots of fun during the school life. Well, choosing this program... that's my choice and I'm really happy with it. But the only thing is, it need to spend a lot of cash to get those materials for the homework or research book or project. Seriously, this is like killing me. I know mom had promise that if anythings that related to the school works, she's gonna pay for it. But still.... should I be happy or what? I am happy cause I get to buy the latest trend of some clothes for the assignment. I am controlling myself to get the most cheapest thing and I even went to Time Square and Sungai Wang for the materials. However, this is really making me feel so guilty yet happy. WTH?!

Anyways, I love my school life, my family and the man. 

So after getting my baby iMac, I've been playing it a lot. I'm so in love with the iMac!!! 

notes for u.