Bye 10 Hi 11

What have I done in 2010? A lot! Something I regret doing it, something memorable, something sad, something..  I had a really big fight with mom. I deal with a heartbreak moment. I had a new vision for myself. I found a best guy friend. I knew Stitch this year. I had a great birthday. I've learned to love family and put them as priority. I've learned to love myself more and then love others. I've lost some weight which I accidentally make it.

At the month of May, June, July, August, and September; it was the worst moment I ever had. I regreted. I shouldn't. I grew up because of all this. I've learned the lesson. I promise to be a better person. I will not fail my mom. I will keep doing better. I will be a good daughter, good sister, good student, good girl. I will not choose to forget anything that had already happened. No matter good or bad, I will keep it in mind and remind myself not to repeat.

In general, I have average and poor performance. In romance, I love someone, lost someone, had a crush on someone, and nothing happen, then someone found me, I love someone. In financial, I am officially broke. I have saving, and suddenly all gone. I'm gonna save it all over again. I have enroll myself into a new program. Fashion Marketing and Management in Raffles International Institution. I'm going to have new friend. ^_^

This year, mom bought a new condo. I finally have my own bedroom! I finally get to choose the thing I want. I finally have my dream room. Yes, I am blessed. I am thrill. I am overwhelm. I am thankful. I am lucky to have everything. I want to thank mommy for giving me everything I want. I have bunch of close friends. I love you guys! I will still hang out with you guys sometimes. Or maybe you guys should come hang out with me. ha-ha!

This New Year countdown, Chloe invited me to celebrate with her at Genting Highland. But I rejected. Cause I have to deal with the new school stuff, I am broke, I want to stay home and bla bla bla. So, I will be staying at home and reading my books. Online, chatting with Stitch, doing my stuff and be with the family. I am sometimes family oriented. ha-ha!

I wish the brand year of 2011, I will be a better person. Not getting myself into trouble. Live my life perfect. I wish everyone around me will be healthy and happy, safe and sound. I wish my mom will be happier and healthier, I wish my brothers will be stronger and tougher. I love you guys~

When L met S.

There's a boy and a girl. They were school mates since primary school. They never talk to each other. After graduated from primary, the boy and the girl went separately. Then, they met each other at secondary school. The girl was happy when she saw the boy here cause he was the primary school mate. Still they never talk to each other. Maybe they did. But, the girl do not have good impression towards the boy cause the boy was a trouble and the boy was very unfriendly. Then the girl left the school.

Few years later, the girl received an inbox mail, it was the boy. The boy looks totally different than before. They chat but on that period, the girl was dealing with some matters. The girl was afraid of the boy cause the boy was a little bit too aggressive. So, the girl hide from the boy for some time. By the way, during that period, the girl was busy. After some time, the girl look back for the boy. They talk, they know each other more and more. They played a little game and the game gone wild. Everything seems out of control, and both of them are having so much fun still.

Suddenly, the girl decided to stop, cause she realize that she had a little bit something for the boy already. The boy is a better man compare to before. The girl thought that maybe she should be honest and tell the boy to stop everything before it's too late. Then the boy told the girl something more surprising. He told the girl that he had a crush on her while in secondary school. On that time, the girl was dating someone else. He decided to tell her the truth after the school break, and who knows the girl left. Then the boy left to another country. He was devastating for few months. When he found the girl, he was excited. Then, he had another crush on the girl when he found her. She changed a lot so does the boy. 

The girl thought it was a game. The boy proved that's not a game. It's real. The boy told the girl how he felt and the girl was hesitating. Then the story won her heart. In the girl's mind, loving someone and to be love by someone is a blissful thing. She decided to love the boy even though that's a very hard task. Maybe deep down inside, she knows the boy worth that much. The girl is very lucky. She has a wonderful family, friends, life and now she has the boy. They are trying their best to work it out. They live happily ever after~♥♥ 

-The End-

How beautiful is this story?!

异地恋其实很幸福

 有许多人不同意，毕竟分隔两地，不能照顾依偎着对方，心里的失落总是有的罢。

但是很多异地恋的人确实是幸福的，比任何人都幸福。

两个人能整天腻在一起，固然很幸福，他们很少会寂寞，但是也很少有绵长的思念。思念本身就是一种最大的幸福，记得自来也大人曾经对名人说，思念你的人就是你的归处。

拥有异地恋的人是幸运的，因为你拥有了一个愿意和你一起坚持努力的人，你拥有了一颗能和你有着相同执着和梦想的心，你拥有了一份强烈到有勇气挑战可恶的距离的爱，这难道不是一种幸福吗？

每当一个人静静的时候，想到有一个人和你一样在坚守这如此脆弱的爱情，那种温暖，不是异地恋的人是无法体会的，那是一种心灵无声的沟通，是无条件的信赖。茫茫人海中，能找到这样一个无条件信赖自己的人，这难道不是一种幸福吗？

两个人常常在一起，难免会大意，他们常常会一起吃饭，一起逛街，一起上课，但是却常常忽略了心灵上的沟通。对于一份真正的爱情，沟通才是最重要的，它能保持爱情的新鲜感，能让对方了解现在爱着的是怎样的一个人。只有了解了对方，爱情里才不会有误解，才不会有错失了的爱情。所以，异地恋的人有了爱情的优势，他们很久都见不了面，有了心事，有了难过就在电话里倾诉，他们的每一次交谈都相当于一次交心，因为彼此都能了解对方的想念，所以，在他们之间很少有了误会，彼此都懂得了谅解，懂得了宽容。这难道不是一种幸福吗？

甜言蜜语也算的爱情的润滑剂吧，没有一对恋人可以有像异地恋人那样拥有繁多的机会说甜言蜜语，每次电话里，总是无意中会说一些"想你""等你""爱你"，即使话不多的人也一样会说，因为彼此爱着，因为目前只有"语言"这样一种工具可以表达自己的心情，因为爱的表达，其实都单一。所以，能坚持异地恋的人都是深切的爱着的，这样的爱在时间的河流里平淡却激烈，我想这是所有人都会羡慕的爱。拥有着这样的爱的你，难道不幸福吗？

在爱情里我最不怕的就是距离，只要真正爱着，终归是能在一起。是啊，距离在那么深切的爱里算什么？什么也不是。如果你们因为异地恋就轻易分手了，千万不要把罪过怪在距离上，你应该庆幸，自己离开了的一个并不真正爱你的人，因为在爱的面前，距离真的什么也不是。所以,如果你的爱人也在遥远的地方，不要觉得寂寞，不要觉得委屈，要庆幸，你用寂寞和思念换来了一份真正的爱，那是别人求之不得的爱。

如果你们在一个班，

一起自习，

一起上课下课，

一起泡茶一起记笔记，

离开一秒也无所谓，还有下一秒；

如果你们在一个学校，可以

一起去图书馆，

一起去露天电影场，

一起进食堂一起看星星看月亮，

一起跑八百一起手牵手进小树林，

一天不见，至少还有明天，至少还可以一起毕业；

如果仅仅在一个城市，也还可以

一起逛街，

一起吃冰一起玩电玩，

一起坐公交一起乘电梯，

可以一起想起城市某家小店某个好玩的去处，

一个星期不见也会想念，毕竟不是每个星期都有空，每个节日都放假；

可是，有些人一刻不曾想念。

不思量，自难忘。

不敢想念，因为不敢忘记。

可是可是，有些手很久很久没有办法牵，有些依依不舍吻只能对着电话......

下雨啦，有没有人给她撑伞；

碗里有他最喜欢吃的肉才想起来不能夹给他；

夜里醒了，因为梦到她的身边有另一个他给披衣服；

逛街脚疼了，那个心疼的人不再提醒说，回家吧；

学习累了，想捏捏她的肉肉的脸告诉她，其实你不用减肥，一点不胖；

有了古怪的点子，留着忍着，打电话时告诉他，然后听他说，好，下次我们见面时一起......

下次，下次有多久？

一个人裹紧大衣一个人吹吹风，

一个人承受另一个的理想，

一个人奋斗为一个人的承诺，

一个人左手握右手，

一个人坚强一个人守着信仰，

一个人等着，等着一句话：下次见面时一起！

"距离是一份考卷，测量相爱的誓言，最后会不会实现。

我们为爱还在学沟通的语言，学著谅解学著不流泪，等到我们学会飞，飞越黑夜和考验，日子就要从孤单里毕业，我们用多一点点的辛苦，来交换多一点点的幸福。"

愿那些在不同的地方读书，不同的地方工作的恋人未来幸福。

有时候

爱情...在指缝间承诺...指缝在爱情下交缠.

不在一起很小的一件事情也会变的天旋地转

不在一起每天抱着电话等待那一个电话或者一条短信，在那中间享受一点幸福

不在一起千万不要轻易生气，否则会比在一起处理起来麻烦上千倍上万倍

不在一起假如你生气了请你好好倾听，心平气和，相信会有人为你着急

不在一起假如他（她）生气了，不要去解释，说些"好听的"，因为那些比解释灵

不在一起多为彼此着想，站在对方的立场考虑事情，毕竟谁也看不到谁

不在一起.

在一起時用心去看著TA的眼睛，記住那個愛你的模樣

在一起時用心去拉著TA的手，那是一種溫度.

在一起時用心去珍惜屬於你們的時光

在一起時......

异地恋，请深爱！

勇气

异地恋，首先需要的是勇气，一种敢于挑战现实的勇气，一种能够承担任何风险的勇气，一种能够坦然面对失败的勇气。要明白，现实是一股强大而又无形的力量，我们都无法预计将要发生的情况，但可以拿出勇气来与这股力量抗衡，我们也可以拿出勇气来接受失败的结果。

忠诚

在异地没有恋人的相伴很容易产生一种心理上的孤独，而这种孤独会勾起内心的渴望以及欲念。也只有绝对的忠诚才能抵挡住来自花花世界的诱惑。忠诚不是"傻"，它是对感情的尊重和对自己的尊重；忠诚不是"痴"，它是一种高尚人格的提炼；忠诚不是"呆"，它是一种道德和一种责任。

信任

异地恋给了对方一种遐想的空间，同时也会让对方产生一种不安全感，并引起对对方的胡乱猜疑，而爱情往往在这些猜疑中慢慢地被消溶殆尽。因此，信任是情人之间互相尊重平等关系的体现，建立信任的桥梁是巩固异地恋最行之有效的方法。而缺乏信任的爱情只会在彼此猜疑中变得不堪一击。

理解

理解是建立在信任的基础上，没有信任就无从去理解，不要因为一方工作的繁忙或者其他事情的缠绕没有及时联系而大发雷霆，要知道，现实的压力不会让大家轻松过活，所以要尽量克制自己的情绪，学会理解对方，并体谅对方的辛苦，在精神上做彼此的支柱。这样，理解也会成为两人感情升温的调节器。

沟通

异地恋除了时空带来的距离，心理上的距离也不能忽视，沟通是维持感情并拉近距离的最好方式。不当的沟通可以让距离变成一种障碍，而适当的沟通则可以让距离变成一种动力，所以沟通既是门艺术，也是门学问。

目标

异地恋应该锁定一个目标，而不应该自生自灭，其实异地恋最终的目标就是创造相同生活的条件，因为相爱的人终不能生活在美丽却遥不可及的两个环境里，并蒂的莲花终是要生长在同一片泥土里，既然相爱就要相守。不论如何，都应该全力争取。

忍耐

异地恋等待多过相伴的日子，所以两个人都要忍耐寂寞，忍耐没有拥抱的寒冷，忍耐每天只能倒数计时的焦急。但是要知道，异地恋就是在和时间赛跑，你坚持住了，就胜利了，被时间打败了，就会一辈子错过那个人。所以一定要在异地恋情马拉松中再坚持一下，在坚持一下，只要你能跑完，不需要取得名次，你就赢了！

p/s: Well, I read this on Facebook. This [theory] does make sense. ha-ha! I don't want to share it on Facebook because I just don't want to! XP 

On The Birthday

Thanks to mom for raising me up. Thanks to Nicholas to educate me. Without you guys I am nothing. Thanks to the siblings Jeff and Johnny's unconditional fighting experience to make me strong and tough. XP Thanks to the family relatives to be good to me. Thanks to the friends, babies, babi[s], and the Stitch for treating me good and always allow me to do something crazy on you guys. Thanks to all of you for the best wishes for me. I woke up with so much love~<3 I am happy, satisfied and appreciate. I love you guys!!! p/s:Thanks to the biological father to be the sperm contributor. 

Celebrate my birthday the second time at Neway. From 1:30pm sing until 6:45pm. It was fun cause 4 of us don't have to share mic. Then we went to Pyramid and have dinner at The Garden. 

Thanks for the gifts. Love it. 

On this day, something special happened. It's official. Because the story won my heart. It's surprise. It's awesome. It's unbelievable, I can't believe how lucky I am. I'm crazy~ Ha-ha!

Appreciate

As I mention at the last 2 post, I will stay home and be a good girl till Wednesday. Yeah!! I'm still a good girl now. I stay home, playing with the baby, jog, online, reading and day dreaming. 

Well, today granny had a little operation at her eye. Everything goes well. As usual, when I stay home, nothing special happen. Ha-ha. 30 more minutes later will be my birthday. The family members already celebrated. I received so much love which I really appreciate and cherish. I'm gonna write very long on the next post. To thank the family, friends and some stuff. 

By the way, I'm gonna add one more character into my life now. Please welcome Mr Stitch/ Sponge Bob. Ha-ha. Because he talks like Sponge Bob once and I called him Sponge Bob. But, I'm gonna call him Mr Stitch cause I love Stitch more than Sponge Bob. XP I will handle with care. I got lots of thought about this. I wanted to express it out. I will... apparently not now. Cause, I need to sit down and write with calm and quiet mood. 

I have to go out and say Happy Birthday to JoJo. We are sharing the same birthday on 29th Dec!! Yeah!!! I'm happy~

I got nothing special to record today. I've been a very good girl today. Stay home all day and granny even ask why I wasn't out. ha-ha.

I've read a book. I've jog. I've baby sitting for just a little while. I did a delivery to dad at One Utama. Oh ya! I had a little talk on skype.=]

Weirdest feeling ever. I kinda like it. Well, just wait and see.

Celebrate In Advance

Celebrated my birthday in advance with my dear friends. Hang out at One Utama. Well, the plan was like making me speechless. But that's ok. No big deal, as long as everyone is happy. The movie was a disaster!! Seriously! It just makes me laugh non stop or speechless and I was text-ing with someone from the beginning till the end. 

Dinner was great. Everyone was happy. Talked a lot of crap and took a lot of photos but I'm not gonna upload at here cause it takes a long time to be done. Yes, this coming Wednesday will celebrate my birthday also. I'm so lucky to have a bunch of friends like you guys!! I love you guys so much!!! I love you~

A little incident happened. Told the babies, and well, it's not really a big deal and I don't really give a shit about it. Opps~ I shouldn't write like this. But, I don't care~ ha-ha.

Thank you Kelvin and Vince for fetching. I love you guys! Muakkkssssssssss~

Gonna rest for 2 days and continue party! School starts soon!!! I'm gonna miss everyone~ Good night!! 

p/s: Someone told me that he had to sleep before 1, but he keeps on talking until 2:40am. He even trying to tell me that he wants to skip the class!! WTH! Lazy bug!! The answer is NO!! ha-ha. Be a good boy and go to class. 

On The Christmas

Woke up at 11. Cuddling at bed until 1. Get up and packed. Hang out at Puchong. Jog. Eat. Talk. Playing with the baby and laptop and camera. This is my Christmas.

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Here is the photo I've promised to give you. =]

Please ignore the car key. XP

Sexy Eve

So, it's Christmas's Eve! It's hot and sexy! It's fresh! It's new! It's my very first time! Technically. Ha-ha.
I spent my Christmas's Eve with Vince, Chloe, Kevin and Ben. Well, add on Kelvin and Addy with other three friends. Where the hell is Grace? Ya, she dump us for her family gathering. I forgive you G! Family always come first. See, I'm a thoughtful kind little angel. Don't you love me much?

Vince came and pick me up to meet up with C, Kevin and Ben. Went to The Curve around 4 something, they went to Ikea to buy the famous Curry Puff. Yum~ It was a rainy day. But, by the time we finish our tea time, the rain stopped. Walked to The Curve for the movie tickets. Watched Gulliver's Travel. Hilarious and fun. Well, G, when you're not here, I kinda replace you. Vince keep on saying he's scared when the movie not even start. I missed you!! ha-ha. I lied. I don't actually. XP

Met Kelvin and Addy with 3 other friends at Mc D, I stole the fries from Kelvin who only ate a Fillet O' Fish and claim that he's full already. How ridiculous? Is he a she? ha-ha. Then we went to Dragon-I for dinner. The place was a historical moment for Ben. Cause I happens to know that he threw up right in front of Dragon-I last time when he had drink at The Sanctury with Kelvin and others.

So, we spent almost 2 hours in the cinema watching the hilarious comedy. Then, meet up with the other boys and helped them with their party spray. Hang at there for some time, and we went to The Library. I have to say, this is my first time ever been to this kind of place. You guys are very super duper honor to have my first time. Applause please! I'm just kidding.

After The Library, we went down to the car park. We wondered how was the boys selling their stuff. Everyone almost everyone I mean strangers are wet. The sticky oily hair and disgusting smell stuck inside the ladies and outdoors. Then we saw Kelvin and others playing with the spray. Spray on those strangers and us. Me, Chloe, Vince and Ben ran like no tomorrow and poor Kevin became their target. He's technically a bubble freak. Then we went back to Sunway for supper. Funny thing was, the mamak stall got Indo Mee left. Linger for awhile and went back cause Mr Kevin has to back to Seremban. Mr Vince fetch me back to Sg Buloh because of the time. Thanks baby~ Heart you banyak banyak and sorry for bothering!

Get home, and sleep. I was exhausted. Well, I did talked on Skype for a little while. This is my sexy Eve. I'm looking forward for the New Year's Eve too. Ha-ha!

Another unproductive day. Well, it's not really. I'm suppose to get out and meet with the babies. But, Vince have to ffk because he had to be the standby driver for his precious little sis. ha-ha. 2nd aunt came to pick up Shyangyi and we talked about something. Well, all I can say is the world is small. Went to Bangsar Village again for the Birkenstock shoe. Not me buying it.

Get back home, bath and terus pengsan. LOL. I took 1 and a half hour nap.

Sigh, I really have no idea what to update.

Finally I got my laptop back! Today, I stay home all day. By the way, today is Dong Zhi. Everyone have to eat Tang Yuan which means reunion. Well, we celebrated yesterday. So, we went to Bangsar Village for Birkenstock. I saw a god damn new collection of Birkenstock! It was so pretty. I want both! The color looks so nice and the price was nice too. A pair approximately RM400. So, 2 pair will be RM800. I will get killed. But those were so nice! Me likey~

Nothing in my thought. I wanted to write something but my mind is empty. So, I will write some funny ridiculous pure made from Hillary's story. ha-ha!

冲动

就是有那股冲动想要告诉你我...
算了！可能你只是一时无聊才会跟我说话。
我真的很想人真的告诉你。但，话到嘴边却吐不出来。应该说是写不出来。所以就掰说自己的生日在几时，还有不害臊的跟你要礼物。我的天！

Family 万岁！

Today I woke up with a bigggg smile. Cause I saw granny. She was here when I get up and gave me a super duper great big hug. I'm so in love. Jog for a little while and they are preparing tong yuen. We celebrate 'Dong Zhi' one day earlier cause on this day, everyone was free. Delicious!! Pictures will be here on tomorrow. Promise!!

Went to Tenji for dinner and apparently, Shyang-Yi wants to celebrate his birthday. So, the last dinner which we had at Tenji was for Shuyee. Does it mean we have to eat at there two more times?! Ha-ha! Joking!! Took a lot of pictures. The boys wanted to change their profile picture at facebook and so they want me to take their most handsome look.

Get home around 1030. I'm dead tired. I'm fat. Cause I ate a lot of Haagen-Dazs and Baskin Robbins. I have to jog longer tomorrow. Ish!! Okay~ good night baby!!

Oh!! There's a rumor! My cousin told me that there's a rumor about me having new boyfriend. Well, the truth is I'm not having only one new boyfriend. I have tons!! How cute and awesome my family could be?! But, they describe my 'boyfriend' tall and skinny good looking guy. Haha! Kakak will fly if he know this. DUH!!

Me, you and you.

How's my Monday? Well, I spent half of my day with babies again. Went to service my car and had lunch at Umai-ya Japanese Restaurant. While me and G was waiting for the car done, HP called and said my laptop were ready for pick up. We fetch Vince at Kelvin's place which Kelvin never get to join us cause his place is just our meeting point. WTH?! Ha-ha. Then we went for lunch. After lunch went to HP Towel to grab my laptop, by the time we get there, I realize I didn't bring my receipt. All the cursing words came out naturally. I know. My mom taught me not to swear but I didn't listen. Is like [I got brain but I didn't use it.] that kind of explanation. Its not proud though. Even though I didn't complete the task, but Vince learned new way home. Sent all the babies home and I quickly rush back to see granny...

... Who knows... Cousin said that she's coming on the next day cause the taxi delay. Then I took a little nap. Woke up 2 hours later and decided to jog. Nice work out session with sweaty sexy body. Ha-ha. I really very perasan. Had dinner at home, listen to their adventure during the trip. Little baby CenCen was having so much fun. A naughty boy who owns so much love from us.

Sitting down here and rewind all the things I've done today. I had fun with my two babies.
And there goes another year. Well, I wonder what if we never broke up. Then I wonder what if me and you really had a little something. I wonder how my life will be with and without both of you. The first you, well, I had you and I lost you. With and without you, the moment I've been through. It was interesting. The second you, I never own you. Never had you. But we had an agreement before which is quite alluring and sexy but it just slowly disappear with no reason and we pretend nothing had happened. So, the second you. I'm curious what If I had you once. Hmmm... 得不到的是最好的！DUH!!!

I want to have a little surprise on my birthday.
I don't feel like celebrating my birthday.
I want to spend my birthday with my closest friend with lots of love.
I want to be busy the whole day on my birthday.
I want to get the present you promise to give.
I wish you won't forget what you have promised.
I don't feel excited about the birthday.
I want to spent time with mommy on my birthday.
I don't have super sweet 16, I don't have dynamic sexy 21.
I just want the fams and friends to spent time with me and be happy.
Don't ever upset me or my mommy on this day.
I don't know why I list down all these.
I think G's dog infected me with her emo-ness. Ha-ha!!

Tron Legacy

Watch this movie with babies at Time Square. How I wish this Time Square is like the NYC Time Square. Stupid me! Hilarious moment with funny people--us!

I'm so freaking tired and I want to sleep already. I wish I could wake up early and call the car service center. Super short update!!! This is for Sunday!

p/s: The previous post is for Saturday~ I didn't break the promise!!! Good night baby~

Jam Hsiao Concert

I have to say, this concert is way more better than Adam Lambert's concert. Why? First, they start on time. Second, the decoration is nice. Third, the lighting and sound effect are wayyyyyy morrrreeeee better. Last but not least, Jam sang freaking much song. He sang other people's song and he even dance with his cute little butt!! Seriously!! If not because of I didn't notice that my camera was on standby mode, I would have record the whole concert and laugh alone. I can't upload any photo currently, but I'm gonna put back when I get back my baby HP. So much LOVE for Jam Hsiao~ I kept two post card which he wrote something on behind. Yipee!!! Well, luckily the battery isn't dead when I wanted to use. I took so freaking much photo, and 2 or 3 video. I don't know if that's legal if I post it. But, who cares?! By the way, I felt sorry for the special guest. Cause until now, I still have no idea who he was. I don't know those song he sang and I don't know about him. =( Ha-ha, I felt bad!

When Jam sang 【我怀念的 】, I think of you. 【我怀念的是无话不说，我怀念的是绝对炙热。】不过没事了，这点小事我还应付得来。 他唱的很多首歌听得我很想哭。每一句都让我想到我们。 我不会说想要忘记这些事的话，因为没有这一段，我不会了解那么多。你是我的珍品，能看不能碰。真是无奈！=X

So mom text me 3 in the morning, asking where I was. Luckily I did get up and reply her. If not she will go crazy all night. She called this afternoon and told me what happened. She had a nightmare about me calling her and she didn't picked up my call. Then she call the voice mail and heard me crying over the phone. She tries to call me and can't get me. And so, she woke up and text me. Silly mom, I'm alright. So sorry to make you worry. I'll be fine and no one can hurt me. ha-ha. I'm tough!! =D

School start really soon. I'm really nervous cause new environment. I will be the oldest. I don't know. Seriously, they don't have MSN over here. DUH!!

What Love Taught Us

Some people learned to be matured while having a relationship and some people don't. Some people thought they became smarter while having a relationship and some people don't. Those people learned how to communicate, reconcile, understand, love, and respect. Some people worth to sacrifice and some don't even worth to shed a tear for. Sometimes we thought we love that person but after some time we thought that is not love or we don't love that person that much. Sometimes you knew that person don't worth that much but still you willing to sacrifice no matter how others advise you. Until you wake up from those shitty things the person has done to you, then you reliaze that person is just wasting your time. So, be wise! Sometimes you might lose control or lost. Don't panic, someone out there will lead you. Unless you got not family or friends, then you will be fine eventually.
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So, these days I saw many suidside case. Well, this makes me feel uncomfortable. Getting too much negative information makes myself blue. That's why I want to ran away from Sg Buloh to Puchong. Who knows.. They are going out for a 3 days 2 night trip. I was planning not to go out anymore since I've over spent this month. No choice! I don't want to be alone and think of those. Haha!!

I put back my teeth retainer on. Suffer!!! I talk like chi lei gan and my hau sui is like water. Haha! I have to keep on suck it back and make the weird sound. I felt like my teeth are going to be out of shape so I put back. Now my teeth are sore. I think I might take it off half way cause it's hurt.

Tomorrow got to work. Haha! Will be seeing mom's favorite singer. Silly mom ask me to take photo with the singer - Jam. Yea, his name is Jam. I have no idea either. This time I will bring my camera and put it in my sling back. My sling bag will not leave me. I will carry it everywhere with me. I still regret on putting back my camera while Adam was here! ISH!!!

Ok!! I tak boleh tahan the pain dy. I'm going to take off the retainer and continue reading my book. Chiao~

Chilly Night

Wow! It's cold out there. I'm going back to puchong later in the evening. Cause I got job to do and I'm alone at Sg Buloh. It's not really fun being alone for a long time. When I want to be alone I will come back to Sg Buloh. When I wanted to be family oriented I will back to Puchong.

I've been watching tv and reading book at the same time the whole day except when the maid came and went out to teach mom's friend about Chinese typing stuff. I'm kinda excited because my new school is going to start soon. That means I'm getting a new life! Haha! Then, bestie will back on town! Then, move into new house. Then, my life will be perfect! Is not like I'm not having a good life now, but I'm looking forward for the new environment. Then, I can stop thinking much about you. Perhaps.

When a person got into a few relationships already, the person tends to be more protective to themselves and not expecting much for the relationship. I do not expect much already. Haha! I want a partner that have good personality, good body, beard and strong arms and chest. It would be perfect if his chest is a little bit hairy. Gosh!!!!! That was before. Now, I want a partner that has everything at above XD and a stable job, healthy lifestyle, body and financial. I am so freaking greedy. I know!!!

I won't waste my time on those who don't want to spend time on me anymore. I know if you put effort or not. Anyways, let's talk about romance few years later. Not now. XP
Good night!!

So kiss me and smile for me. Tell me that you will wait for me.

The weather kills me. I'm so in love!! If I had a hot chocolate in my hand, that would be perfect.

Well, living alone is not that bad actually. Right? 一个人的精彩. Yea, you'll feel lonely sometimes but sometimes when you're alone you'll enjoy the quiet moment. I enjoy quiet moment and reading.

Nothing in my thought right now, cause there are three person in the house cleaning. Noisy and messy.

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Seeing two people falls for each other and deeply in love was so incredible. I want to have someone to do this with me. Love me deeply and I love him deeply. For now, maybe is not my time yet. Maybe I should be focus on my study and later on my career. Maybe I'm really those who get marry and have babies at 30's.

The person I have a crush on is pretty surprising for myself. Cause I never thought I will fall for him. But, it's a magical moment when you have the feeling and that person will be the perfect one for you. No matter how bad he really is. Well, he is nice. Just don't like me. Ha-ha.

I've been in few relationships and all of the relationship were good. All ended because of bad timing, bad decisions and... I will not deny about anything because without all these pass experiences, I'm nothing. I learned from the pass. I'm sure the next relationship will be better.

This time, I will be more focus on my family and my study/career first then only romance. All of these are important but these depends on the period of the whole life. Now, maybe study/career first. No money no love. I won't be love blind anymore. I don't want to fight with mom over a guy or my more. Ha-ha! I will be thinking more than ever then only committed into a relationship, which my family especially my mom and brothers approve. And I know it's hard to look for a guy which mom will approve. By the time I found it, I think I'm a grandma already. Sigh! I want babies!!!

Rewind back the past, think back the things I've done, the words I've said. I felt really stupid. But, I'm glad I felt it that way the same time cause this means I really know how wrong I was. Through this latest romance which happens to be solo by myself. I've learned that 'He's just not that into me!' haha. Yea! I felt sorry for that poor guy. Please go celebrate for escaping from me. Seriously.

Ok. Since I've been ffk by the maid once again. I've did some laundry and clean some trash. I wanted to dance but my body was sore. And all I do is lying on the couch watch tv. Im gonna continue lying on the couch and watch tv~ please enjoy reading the freaking long post about me and good night!!!

Doing Nothing The Whole Day

Hmmm... I slept on the bed all day. I do not feel like waking up. Yet, I go take away food from McD. Haha! Another thing is the maid ffk me again! Seriously!!

The laptop is going to cost RM1300++. Gosh! I'm going to kill by mom. =(

Well, is like nothing to say when there are nothing to talk about you. I have tons of things to say when there's something related to you. I'm kinda miss you though.

Movie Date

I had sore throat. I fell sick. Yet, I went out for movie with G, Ganfu, Chloe, Kelvin, Kevin and Ben 10. Ha-ha. Watched Due Date. It was hilarious. The whole mall was freezing and we were seriously shaking.

Had out dinner at Dataran Sunway. I didn't felt hungry but I have to eat something just in case I'll feel hungry during midnight. I want to keep myself busy!!!! Sigh!!

Lesson Learned

I know I've ruined it. I told you I want to talk. But now, I felt like remain silent and let it be. Pretend that this never happen. Well, left it unsaid will be good. I'll just made up a funny joke for you by the time you ask. I always made up hilarious joke to make you laugh. Isn't it? I will still do. =]

能怎么样？

哭湿了枕头就翻到另一边哭咯！
然后再换枕头继续哭。
哭饱了就好，没什么大不了的！
只是很意外自己竟然投入了。

总会有终结

有些问题自己心里有数。有些答案是自己不想听到的，所以最好不要问。
凡事有开始必有终结。爱情、友情其他关系也是这样，只是终结的方式不同。
我们之间的暧昧用完了，并不表示我们要变成陌生人。开始的时候，我们都知道总会有终结。

Another Letter For You

I felt that everything around me changes very fast. People, stuff and environment. People changed, is like totally different and I don't know why. Stuff and environment changed in a good way and I like it. I don't know if I said something and made things different. Well, honestly, I don't like the people who changed. Yes, I'm talking about you. You've changed. Maybe is for my and your own good. Maybe the changes will be the better choice. I don't know if I still want to have the serious talk with you. Maybe something are just better left unsaid, just like what you said all the time.

The thing we have between us are precious. It's a good memory. Since non of us wants to mention it, then let's keep it forever. Never start never end. I do cherish this. 我们的默契，我们的心有灵犀，我们的一拍即合。真的很难得！可是我想我应该停止我的配合。我累了！我想对你说，就像当初我告诉你我心里的话那样。但是，已经没那个必要了。那么久了，你的举动你的回应，我想我也应该明白了。很感谢你。只是我要的答案还不是时候可以有结果。祝福你吧！ILY

I did shed my tear for my never started romance. Well, let's go with the flow. =] I'll always be there.

Bed Time Diary

These few days I've been blogging by using my phone. Wise choice for getting an iPhone. BUT!!! BlackBerry Torch catches my attention. Well, it's gonna be for a little while to get it!!! I'm greedy little girl. Ha-ha!

Took a nap and went to Pyramid Harvey Norman. Checked out some furniture and we bought a few bed sets and tv set. I have chosen my bed! It's so big and i am thrilled! Hiak hiak! Mom made an agreement with me. That's serious. Saying that if I let male sleep over and on my bed I will be kicked out from the house. So, boys!! Listen up, don't play at my house okay? We can play at other places like in the car, hotel, park and even corridor. I'm just kidding!!!

Mom still think I'm dating Vince. Sigh!!! How many times I should say? Okay, how about I'm gay now? I don't like boys and I'm starting like girls? WTF?! I said no means no la!!! What kind of language will make you understand I'm not dating anyone? Yea, and saying those stupid things like I can't wait to chase you back to China. Or I can't stand about you still staying at here. I don't know how to react. You always say those stupid stuff which I never did and tell everyone. If you really think I'm dating, okay!! I will go find some guy to date with. Satisfied? I'm looking for it now. I will be aggressive.

Hey you! Without you, I'm still me. I adore you but it doesn't means I will like or love unconditionally. You are not my child. I will only love my baby unconditionally. Ha-ha. I'm still waiting. Until I fed up, I will stop. At least liking/missing you will be the thing that keeps my mind busy when I got nothing to do. I do miss you and checking you out. Ha-ha. You'll never know. Good night baby! <3

Dream Comes True... I'm Gonna Stop It!

Oh my... Remember the previous post I said the 18sx dream thing? Ok. Last night I really had a 18sx dream!!! Seriously!! I have to stop thinking about this!!!

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How I start my day? Helping Mr Tiu to move. Seriously, he's kidding me! When I get there, my car is like quarter full only. They don't really needed me there actually. After all the moving things we went to DHL to sent the gloves sample at Subamg Avenue. Thanks to the boys who borrow me some cash because the DHL credit card system down. We had our lunch at JOJO Pan Mee. Well, I messed up the routine. We had our lunch first then sent parcel. Thanks to Kelvin to be the stubborn driver who don't want to listen to the real advised and bring us 'Yao Fa Yuen'.

I went to do my hair. I don't even want to talk about it. Next time I should do my own hair. Is like way more better then them. Ish!! Waste my time and money. Waited for Ganfu and Bryan to fetch me and we off to the ball. The gift tonthe guest was chocolate which taste absolutely great with wine. I had three of them with a glass of wine. Felt guilty for having it right after I get home cause I promised mommy not to drink. But the quality of the wine was good also. Having lots of fun at the dinner. That's my day.

As for today. Get up. Packed sample again. Had dim sum at 'Hei Yut Lao'. Fetch mom to the club house to sign some documents and went home. I'm a zombie now. I need coffee or a nap. I wonder how much my laptop will cost me. I hope I won't be too much cause m is paying it. Ha-ha.

I miss you. I hope the dream I dreamed won't happened in real life. Cause the front part was soooooo good and the later part was like shit. I don't want to share the specific moment with other women duh!!!! It's not fun at all!! So, to prevent this happen the best thing to do is don't let it happen. Ha-ha. I know!!! I sacrifice the precious moment. But no choice!!

Celebrate Love

Had a good night at the wedding dinner. I enjoy the night. I'm tired to talk about it. I'll do it at the next few post. I'm going to sleep now.

What If I can spend more time with you. That would be the best thing ever. I got something to tell you. We need to discuss. But it's gonna be forever. Maybe next time when I'm brave enough to ask. I miss you. I dreamed about us. It was so flaming hot. Not 18sx or 18pl. But it was still hot. Please be safe.

December Babies

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Who knows they lost my file. They made me go back on Monday for collection. Sigh! That's not my problem SUNWAY UNIVERSITY COLLEGE!!! Then I left to HP Tower to service my poor baby laptop. Yeah, it's dead. I don't know what happened. But the professional said something crack inside. I think it might caused by me. I dropped it like few months ago. I hope it's not going to charge me crazy, because it's over warranty already.While I was waiting for the queue to pass up my form, guess what?! SUNWAY UNIVERSITY COLLEGE called and found my results. Thank god and screw them. ISH! I run up and down duh!!! But I still owe the latest result and certificate and photos. I'm going to pay on Monday and bring my photos.

They dinner was so great you guys!!! Well, it's expensive. The price is the same with Jogoya. But, one more chop, I will get us a free Alaska King Crab!! Please go as soon as possible!! While stock last!! Spend RM100 get one chop.
Everyone was having good time. Baby CenCen was going nuts. He ran up and down at the restaurant while made me run up and down with him too. I wore a cute little dress, had my hair and make up done and end up looking like a crazy women. ha-ha. Five of us. ShuYee, CenYee, Shyang-Yi, JoeYee and me. We are the December babies. We grew up in a loving family. We are not born rich but we are full of love. =]

Tomorrow, I'm gonna fight with the time once again since I promise to help Mr Tiu for the moving. Yet, mom wants me to post sample at DHL. And I have to rush back before 3 to get myself ready for the dinner. Yeah, 3 it's a little bit early, but guys, I'm a girl. I need some time to beautify myself. LOL. The rejected dress is going to be wore by me on tomorrow night. Cause I got no time for choosing a new dress. Oh my god!! Please pray for me!*finger cross* I don't want to have the same look with others.

I need to go rest now. It's 12. I have to sleep and rest and sleep. ha-ha. I'm hyper. I will post out the photo after I get back my laptop because I'm not really wanted to use mom's laptop to post photos. I don't know why, I just don't.

I miss you baby. Even though I'm busy.

So, mom's planning to celebrate the December babies all together at one time. We are going to celebrate at Tenji Mont Kiara later. It's going to be so much fun!!

By the way, today was busiest day of the week. I woke up at 9 in the morning and then I pick up the letter at post office and went to college for result. Who knows the... I'm going out now. To be continue... By the way, si comel, I miss you!!!

Girls Day Out... Nah!

Okay, we had our day out. Paid my new college fee. Which I just knew the transfer was unsuccessful. DUH!! I have to go one more time on Monday!! I will go college to get my results for the new college. Yikes! I'm so tired. Then, by the time we were planning to go eat, Grace said she need to be back at 4 to fetch her sis. OMG!!! Seriously!!! I'm going to kill her!!! Who will go back from the city at this time? It's jam like god damn it crazy and gila babi!!! So, we decided to go back to Pyramid. Great! LOL

Shop till drop. Not me but Mr. Ganfu. He bought more than we does. I'm so sleepy now. I feel like dying already. Even though I'm dying, but I still had my fashion show. Ha-ha. So, Grace left early and I had a little dinner time with Mr Ganfu. Talked a lot as usual. =]

亲爱的，如果我说想念你，那是骗人的。哈哈！I'm single, legal and available just for you. I wanted to say '[I'm single, but my heart already taken. So, maybe you just need to back off!]' But, that's rude. So I said'[I'm single, but my heart already taken. I'm single, available and legal for that person only.]' ha-ha. I'm such a bitch!

I've bought 2 dresses and a belt. I realize I haven't bought the clutch. Damn!

才发现，原来我曾经错得那么离谱。以为自己那么伟大，可以为了谁而不做什么事。其实，只要我喜欢，爱我的那个人应该了解。应该知道我为什么喜欢，而不是一味的阻止我。就像我不曾阻止我曾经爱过的那个人做任何事。我鼓励、支持。如果我不喜欢，我告诉他为什么，而不是强制性的阻止。毕竟，那个人只是男朋友，不是儿子。只要别太过分，做任何事都可以的。

好啦，我刚才没有想念你。不过，睡觉前有。这是一定的。睡觉前我会想你在做什么，想着想着就睡着了。这样我才能梦到你。哈哈！晚安咯，亲爱的宝贝。

Went out to be my mom's driver the whole day. Without coffee, I'm like a zombie. So people, when you see me act like a zombie, please feed me coffee, only that I will be a human back. ha-ha.

Learned a lot of things from the elders. Although 3 women equals to a pasar, but they did teach me something. I learn a lot of things since the break up. Seems like things went very well and smooth. Is not like the relationship is not good. Maybe it's not meant to be. I have been warned not to commit into a new relationship that soon as I just started to have a new life. Yea, I know. I don't want either. I don't want a relationship, can't you get it? I just want you to be my best friend and I could talk and complain and fool with. Maybe you don't. Maybe you think I want to be yours. I don't! I don't want to be anyone's or I don't want anyone to be mine. I'm not ready yet!!! ISH!!! What a stupid people.

Tomorrow, I will date my babies out!! Yeah! Oh!! Please, G, do remind me of do the telephone booking! I will get killed if I forgot.

I realized I miss you so much after I text you. I felt like crying, it's like hundred years already. Sigh!!

才发现，我真的很想念你！！！ =]

The Legendary Godiva Chocolate!

The pressie from Godiva! Cute and sexy red hot mouse!

It's not a gift. But I ask mom to get it for me.

My favorite. Chloe loves this too.

My new nail color. Show It & Glow It by O.P.I

Favorite Color. I don't know the name, it's nude. By O.P.I

我想写个笑话。可是这个笑话在这个世界上只有我跟你才知道而已。这是我们之间的秘密。我不要跟别人分享！你想起了那个笑话吗？就是那个有一点儿童不宜的笑话。

不知道为什么，我的心里很不安。我一直希望你能知道我的想法，可是，我又很怕你知道。你知道后，你会发现到原来我没有停过，反而越陷越深。这里的每一篇文章，大部分都提起你。我看了篇短文，说把多数时间留给家人，然后朋友，剩余的时间留给那个你挂念的人。这样才不会患得患失。

很多事情都是注定的。你跟我有缘可是那个情分始终都没有。我们有那么多的机会，却又错失了那么多的机会。机会到底是制造还是把握的？你给我机会，我却错失了。那么久了，我还是会埋怨自己！哈哈！好害羞哦~ Anyways, 只要大家都过得快快乐乐就好了。=]

Dress Hunting Failed

I haven't get my dress! Holy shit! I've been doing a lot of thing today. I went to Puchong and get mom's stuff. I sent those dirty clothes and some bed sheet to dry clean. Get my nails done at Giza Mall and I went for dress hunting. I saw a perfect dress that looks so cute! I didn't check at the price. By the time I went into the fitting room I was shock. It was RM598. Seriously! Unless Gracie get marry or else I won't buy a dress that cost that much. Ha-ha! Then I went to Starbucks take away coffee and food. I saw the little boy from last time that sang and dance 'I'm a Barbie Girl'. Ha-ha! He was still very active and talked so loud.

I'm home alone now. Not yet hungry but god damn it sleepy. I wonder what can I do except for watching the drama. What's going to happen on tomorrow? I don't know. I urgently need a dress and pay for my school fee. I haven't photocopy my syllabus and I haven't get my full set of result. Damn! I need to go! I seems so busy but I don't. What a stupid people.

I wrote the first story like I said yesterday in Facebook. I want to write something funny or I'm gonna write some story. I'm trying to convince mom to let me start the new school on April since the house is not yet ready and by the time she needs to move, I probably having my final exam. Which I will be over stress and die. The semester starts at January and ends at April. I don't want my new program's result to be like shit seriously. I don't know. But if mom let me do on April. What am I gonna do on this 4 months? I don't want to waste time. Work? Yeah! Possible. Be the driver 24/7? Maybe. Be my mom's control by phone servant? Absolutely! Especially that's the peek period on renovation and buying furniture, designing furniture, picking up stuff and bla bla bla.

I miss you my dear~ Oh ya! the outcome of my new hair color is awesome! Love it love it love it!