爱一个人，要了解也要开解；要道歉也要道谢；要认错也要改错；要体贴也要体谅；是接受而不是忍受；是宽容而不是纵容；是支持而不是支配；是慰问而不是质问；是倾诉而不是控诉；是难忘而不是遗忘；是彼此交流而不是凡事交代；是为对方默默祈求而不是向对方诸多要求。可以浪漫，但不要浪费，不要随便牵手，更不要随便放手。


这些道理我都懂。


有些事我真的不明白。

Today was quite a weird day. I was feeling sick after I woke up cause I caught cold. LOL. I took a lot of photos and I wanted to upload it. Too bad my card reader has gone. I don't know where it goes. ha-ha. I drove back from Muar and we went furniture shopping straight away. All the way back, I non stop sneezing. I know, S will say it's because of him missing me too much....  LOL.

So, I wasn't feeling so well today. Mr J were out and I was thinking about so many things that had happened in these two days. It wasn't so happy though. I started think negatively and started thinking bad thing. When we talked, the moment wasn't as great as before. No matter what Mr J said or did, I'm not in the mood. Mr J said something that really break me into pieces and it's like no more trust between us. I was crying and I don't know how to react and what to say on that time. But, in the end things turns ok. So, I'm glad we are ok.

After taking a really short nap. I did a tiny little help to pack some stuff then we off to the club house for table tennis and basket ball games with 2nd aunt's family. I felt great after the games. Sweat and had dinner at the club house, then we went to Snowflake again. They love it. ha-ha! I'm the best person to look for if you want to eat something yummeh! 

Anyways, I miss you so much. I hate the this evening. 

Mood swings. Suddenly. I hate now. Everything become so awful. Skin problems is bothering me. Moving to new house, need to deal with everything. Seems like I can't really handle the situation. I want everything to stop and let me fix my main problem first. But I know I can't. I'm moody and I don't want to make people around me that way too. So, maybe just leave me alone? I don't want to talk or what. I just want to be alone. 

Long long time ago, there was a girl fell in love with a boy. Unfortunately, the girl's parents is not happy with them. They said the girl deserve a better one. But the girl was so in love, she do whatever she can to protect the relationship. She fought with her parents, she hurt their feelings, she ran away from home just to prove how much she loves the boy. In the end, the boy dumped the girl. Because the girl having so much problem and kinda bothers him and his family's feeling. In the end, the girl gets no love from the boy and she have to beg for apologies from her own family. When she's forgiven, she think back, does that really worth that much? To fight with the beloved one?

Maybe you should really calm down and think properly about the situation. Maybe not thinking about your own first. Try to think at the parent's side. Is not asking you to do whatever they asked you to do. Is just try to stand at their situation and think about the whole stuff. Maybe you will understand what's going on. I'm sorry I can't help. But I wish I can be the good listener. I'm sorry if this post hurt your feeling, make you don't believe in me anymore. But, I'm worry about you. What you facing now, is like what I've faced before. I know how you feel. I really do. I also know how your parents feel. You have to calm down and think how to handle all these without hurting them.

Akubekam

So, I told someone I kena cucuk today. Then the person really thought I kena cucuk(scold) from someone. That's funny. Actually I went to bekam. The doctor use needle to tuck the skin and vacuum the skin and suck up the toxic underneath the skin. It's good but the skin looks scary though.

We spent around 2 hours at there. Well, that's the major stuff for today. 

I kinda miss S today. Well, everyday. Too bad, he don't know that. How I wish we can get together. 

Tired Post.

I am the driver the whole day. I'm so tired. Dead tired. Woke up so early in the morning. Pick up aunt and cousin and went to One Utama for mom's bank stuff. Then we went to Mont Kiara for the new condo stuff, then we hang out at Soho KL for awhile to wait for mom to deal with the insurance stuff. Then we went back to Kota Damansara. My head was so freaking pain due to lack of water. Then I took a nap and we went out for dinner. 

That's my day. I'm really tired. Imagine I have to drive back to Muar and go up and down!! DANG!!!!

I'm so tired and I miss Stitch terribly. I wish I can cuddle.

God Damn Nightmare

I had a nightmare last night. I wake up and tear like a baby seriously. Someone important in my life left me. I was terrified and heartbroken. I really don't want this to happen. I love you so much. Do not leave ok? You are important and really important to me. Never ever leave me. I cry geh!! LOL

Rough Day

Today I woke up at 930. Mom gave me the shit face cause she said I've promise to bring her to maxis centre for buying iPhone 4. But then, somehow, her bank's thingy made her can't get out. I don't know how the hell the blame was put on me. And by the time I want to prepare my breakfast, she said 'STOP! Let's eat outside!' LOL. What a drama queen. We had our dinner at Dataran Sunway with 2nd aunt and her family. After the breakfast, I suggested that we can have snowflake since I'm very very craving for [xianyuxian]. But unfortunately, it wasn't open yet. Then we headed to Giza Mall. The aunties went to buy bread and we saw someone was doing video shooting. Maybe it's commercial. I don't know and I don't really care. haha. We had Baskin Robbins and I didn't eat it la~ Just them. Seriously!!!

Mom was very pissed because we were notified to move early March, which means few more weeks for us to pack things up. She was lazy to design everything and I was lazy to shooting those photos. We decided to hire a interior designer to do the hard work for us. All I do is commanding. ha-ha! I'm gonna tell that designer I want my room purple and brown color with some white and black furniture. hmmm.... I'm so good with the color. LOL. I'm just kidding. I'm just happen to love this combination. Waiting for the new house key to hand to us. I feel so excited!!

We got help from 2nd aunt and Shin-yi to pack some stuff. Thanks a lot!!!! Then me and Shin-yi went off awhile to pick up something from Stitch's brother. ha-ha! Love everything inside!! Thanks and sorry for bothering S's brother. I feel so bad for him to rush up and down. Anyways, it was raining so freaking hard and me and Shin-yi decided to take away McD instead of joining the rest of them at the club house. We enjoy our dinner and movie at home. That's my day. I'm so dead tired. DANG!!!

Complete Task

Went to class today with my really dark circle underneath my eyes. I rush my color wheel until 330 in the morning and after I clean up everything preparing to bed, my bff came to visit. For the last 3 hours, I'm in pain until now I think. 

So, after class I went back home to fetch mom. But before that, I went to take a nap cause mom ask me to. When I wake up an hour later, my head is spinning and my mouth is dry. I know why, I ate the sotong again. haha! Then we went out. I'm the driver for the day.

Ran up and down the rest of the day. Mom's accountant Mr & Mrs Lim treat us for dinner at a Japanese restaurant @ Jaya One. Too bad I forget the name. It's yummeh! I should bring YOU there next time. haha. I'm sleepy. Seriously sleepy.

Sunday

After I woke up at 9, I went to Giza mall to buy my fashion magazines which request by the lecturer. I had Starbucks as my breakfast since mom had her at home and the bookstore is not open yet. After buying those magazines I went back home and start doing my work. Then the maid show up, mom went to have lunch with her friends and I stay home to guard the house.

I was painting the whole day and then 2nd aunt show up. They were planning to go to the club house and do some exercise. We had our dinner at a Thai restaurant. That was okay.... Yet, they talked non stop. Never stop. Dang!!! I was god damn it tired and I still have to rush my painting thingy.

I miss that person who makes me laugh everyday. He was in trouble. Makes me so freaking worry. Luckily he's fine.

Saturday

So on this day, I fetch grandma to Sg Buloh to meet up with mama. 3 of us went to One Utama for a walk. We ate Nyonya Color and mom said she wants to bring Grandma for movie. So, I went to check for it. Who knows everything is like either fully seat or have to wait. Mom said let's go do a feet massage. Then we went to Thai Odyssey to enjoy our moment. The thing is, I'm really afraid of tickle. The lady who massage for me almost do nothing cause when she touch me, I will have really big reaction. I almost scream. BUT! Mom and grandma were so enjoy. I think they slept.

After the massage we went to cinema again cause mom said is still early. So, our final decision is Green Hornet. Why? Not because all of us want to watch it. Is because it's gold class and mom said she only want to watch Gold class since she only watch movie once a hundred years. ha-ha! The movie was great. I mean maybe the seat makes me very comfortable and then makes me think that the movie is great. I don't know. But somehow, it's worth to watch.

Went to Kota Damansara to pick up my 3rd uncle. Off to PJ Rasa Sayang Restaurant a.k.a Ah Sun Gor Yu Ci. ha-ha! hmmmmmmm..... So nice!! So freaking nice!!! Love it! The shark fin, the soup, the fish. Everything is so freaking nice. After the dinner I was nagging about taking my stuff at 3rd aunt house, then we all went there. I somehow started the gambling session and mom lost quite a lot of money if she compares with us. haha!

Went back home at 12. That was fun and tiring. IMU~

New year is technically end for me. School start last week. I have to pass up my assignment this coming Monday. I'm still in the holiday mood which I am in the holiday mood since the school start at January. Now that I got 2 more exemption and I only have one class to attend every week, how could I not be in the freaking holiday mood? In fact, I felt wasting time but I can't really get myself a job. I'm looking for an excuse for wasting my time or I really can't get a job? Seriously, I don't feel like getting a job but learn something new. I feel like learning other languages or some arts. It's better than staying home all day doing nothing but coloring right?

Last night, we went to Dato's house for [Bai Tin Gong]. That was so big!! I think there's around 200++ people there. HUGE!!! 23 roasted pig on the table?! I didn't take picture cause I don't feel like walking around after aunt told me the funny stuff. I'm the baby sitter at that day. I earned quite big amount of Red Packet as well. LOL!!!!! Aunt said that was my salary for taking care of the baby. My arms literally patah seriously!! Anyways, I'm appreciate for everything. 

Was suppose to go to college and look for the lecturer about my assignment. But, I decided not to go anymore cause I feel like doing it myself and pass it up. Okay!!!! Time to continue my coloring stuff. 

I miss you...

I guess my lifestyle kinda sucks. I messed it up. There's pimples everywhere and I am so depress. I have to stop living my life like this? Sleep early? Sleep before 11? Is that possible? I really want my skin to be normal. ISH!!!!!

I'm busy today. Woke up early in the morning. Ate my breakfast and fetch Grandma to aunt's place. Together we went to Sg Buloh to pick up my mom, and we went to aunt's office. Well, all of us are female. So, we talked. Non stop and laugh like mad people. I think only me laugh like mad people. ha-ha. We were joking about those funny things happened during CNY.

Had our lunch at Amway's warehouse, bought some stuff over there and we went back to office continue our talk. Get back home around 5. I had some junk food before I went to take a nap and during nap time, I'm sweating. Those junk foods really junk. Make my body very heat. Dang!

Continue designing the logo and color those stuff. Dang! It's not hard but I'm lazy. Keep on going! I gain 2 kg! Freak!!! amen! DUH!!!

Something happened last night. Jeff posted a really bad thing on his status. The first reaction of mine was blaming him. He shouldn't posted things like this even though that guy really deserves it. I felt bad because I didn't stand  up for him. People doesn't know how we felt actually. How's the feeling being betrayed by own family. How's the feeling living in a life full of hate and scare. I didn't talked about much about him, because he is the past I never want to have. I wish I can change my name. I don't want to have any thing same with him. Too bad, we are blood related. This is the fact. He don't know how he hurt us. How he hurt my mom and my brothers deeply. Until now, he is still my biggest fear. I'm afraid to go to the place where he will appear. I will be very suspicious if I have to go to those places. I'll hide behind someone or starring on the floor when I'm walking, eating, talking. I'm scared. I just don't want to see him. 

Everyone deserve a second chance, but I don't think he deserves it. By doing those dirty little action thinking no one will find out? Yes, he does not deserve it. I am annoyed by him. I ignore him. All I want is a peaceful life without any disturbance from that man. You think I will forgive you? No. I will never ever EVER forgive you. Not to a person who used me and betrayed me. I won't curse you to dead, I just hope you can disappear and do not mess up my life. We all are better off without you. Live your life, go with the things you choose for. Do not use any of my cousin to look for us. I am ashame of myself to have someone like you relates to me. I wish you are dead so I can change my surname though. 

School Start, Holidays End.

 We've been invited to Vince's open house also his dad's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY Uncle Low. I thought there will be many of us... Mana tau...

Only four of us appear. Chloe and Kevin Ho absent because of illness. Others are still at hometown. Anyways, we were having lots of fun.

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Class starts on today. Good new! I got another 2 exemption from the school again. I'm so thrill! Yeah~ The color mixing thing kinda driving me nuts today. I'm blur, confuse, questions pop up every time. Finally I suffer the 4 hours class and he announce that we are going to have a replacement class on 22 Feb afternoon 2pm to 6pm. Great! Now, I'm going to stuck in the city for hours. I'm thinking about kidnapping Vince for dinner on that day. But, during that hour... reaching his place is a massive problem too. DUH!!!

We had KFC for lunch today cause the hawker stall we planned to go were all closed due to Chinese New Year. By the way, KFC newly launch the egg tart as Kang wanted me to try at Taiwan. Hey, I think you don't need to show me the egg tart anymore cause we had it in Malaysia already. RM1.80 per piece. Taste as good as King's. I wonder if King's bakery supply them the egg tart.

After the lunch, I went back to Sg Buloh to dry clean my over coat borrow from aunt and drop off some stuff. Then I went back to Puchong because babi Grace need transportation at night. Grandma is back when I'm home. Of course, a big warm hug from dear grandma was given. Feel so in love. My grandma is a brilliant women. I adore her and admire her! She taught me how to cure 偏头痛. I'm going to try it if I got chance. I mean try it on those who have this sickness.

I'm tired! I'm gonna sleep soon.

I'm home all day. Unpacking my stuff, eating junk food, mixing color. Damn. I finish my color half way. I'm really regret I didn't listen to J buy some color first.  DAMN DAMN DAMN! Now, I can't do anything but kena cucuk tomorrow because all the color I used is wrong. I have to re-mix it. Damn! I don't know where else can get the stupid Pentel Poster Color.

I ate so many junk food in the house. I really can't control myself. Hmm... I know I gain many pounds already. I'm going to work out now. Seriously. This is no good. I have to prove to someone I can tone down my figure. LOL.

Suddenly sneezing non stop. WTH?! Anyways, tomorrow will have party at Vince's house. I think I'm gonna come home first then only go to his house cause grandma is back. I'm not sure. Still thinking. I have to go back to Sg Buloh to drop of some stuff also. Think think think. Plan plan plan.

The Last Day

Well, I don't have the chance to blog during these few days. I was very busy and another reason is I have an important guest. He was Jeff and my primary and secondary schoolmate and he spend his Chinese New Year with me and my family. He is a very nice young man which makes everyone of us feel shameful. His stories are all amazing and inspire. Why say so? He went out of country alone and work to raise himself, pay for his own tuition fee. Mom was saying that we (jeff, johnny, me and Herman) was living in a very good life and we should learn from him.

Anyways, we were having lots of fun. But the thing is, I did not take a lot of photos. Seriously. I don't know why also. I wish I can more time at Taiwan longer. I love that place! So many things to eat. I spend my whole day walking and eating... literally. Haha. Well, we were a little bit lazy and Kang ask us to go out at night... Every night!!!! The weather is cold and I don't feel like shaking my ass outside so I always say no, as well as my brothers. We bored Kang. I feel so bad for him. Haha.

Because of him we had some special snack. Like the snowflake thingy. After you had one over here, the one at Malaysia will be like shit to you. Seriously. Ha-ha. I ate a lit of things which I don't remember the name. I didn't took pictures as well. I know if Vince and Grace knows about this they will say me lebih.

I failed to buy Vince his (mah yin tong). I can't find any at the night market. I was planning to go Watson, but at the end I didn't. I bought myself not much stuff but I received tons of stuff. As for the red packet!!! It was the biggest ever in my life and I spend it all already. Ha-ha! One word to describe how I felt - syok!

I'm gonna rewind the past few days and wrote it down. Soon. Check back the date as unsaid I will blog every single day. I'm gonna share what I've bought and what I've get. Mua Hahahaha! I'm such an evil.

The Forth Day

I gained some weight after these few days. Johnny and Herman went to play golf with dad. Mom, me and Kang went to Tainan for food hunting. As for Jeff... Poor jeffy... His not feeling well so he stay at the hotel. The Tainan trip was great. They fed me well. Go there around 12 and come back around 530. Mom was asking for Xiancaoxian cause i told her how good it was. Before we went back to hotel, we stop at the shop for the dessert.

Then we went back. Actually at this day, something happened. But it's very serious stuff so I'm not going to share. Anyways, mom went back to her room while me and Kang went down at our hotel to shop. The reason we don't buy things there is because everything at there was killing expensive. All branded stuff and I'm not really willing to pay for it.

We had dinner at The Steak House from the hotel. Dinner was great. After the dinner, I kidnap Kang to the night market again for the souvenir. I failed to buy Vince's stuff. Instead of mah yin tong, I bought socks. Interesting one. I bought myself a Levi's bag, a Borghese Mask, a New Balance walking shoe. Kang is a shopaholic. He bought so many freaking stuff. He bought things every single day we went out. LOL. Ya, the red packet makes him this way.

Went back, packing, fooling around and sleep. On this day, Kang went back to his house. He's going to meet his family at Taipei. ='( Well, great time spending with him. He brought us everywhere. So, not saying him ciican at us, he did put afford to entertain us as well.

Say goodbye to him and sleep.

The Third Day

Jeff, Kang and me went to a place where we can see the sun flowers field. But, this time is not the time to see sun flower, this is the time to see Sakura. If i'm not mistaken. Took the train and walk here and there. Then we went to (Hanshen Mall) to shop. The boys shop like no tomorrow. I was just looking at them to shop.

Had (Xiancaoxian) same as snowflake kind of stuff. It was so freaking nice!!!!!! I can have 2. I bet Grace will die for it as well. The yam ball and sweet potatoes ball was so chewy. LOL.

Then we had baked cheese meal at a random street Kang brought us. It was nice. Yumeh! But right after this we went back to hotel for dinner. Mom said Auntie Susan never see me before, she has to see me. But, when we get there, there's only our family. DUH!!!! Tipu saje...

After the dinner, we were drunk again as well. Haha. Full! Drunk! Fun!

The Second Day

The night when I arrived Kaohsiung, I was exhausted. I was nausea and headache. I feel like throwing up. The flight was a disaster. I fell and bumped my head because of the turbulence while I was waiting for using washroom. Another thing is, when I was very sick on the plane and I was trying to use the washroom, the people before me throw up at the freaking sink. Who the hell throw up at sink? I guess her brain is not functioning well. DAMN DISGUSTING! 

Jeff and Jimmy came to pick my up at the airport and meet up with the parents. Had our dinner at a random restaurant and went back to clean up myself. Seriously, I smell like the throw up thingy. Ewww.... After I bath, met Kang. He was the primary and secondary schoolmate. Little incident happened. That was funny. 

Had our breakfast, met up with Jimmy. He brought us to the IT area for the boys computer parts thingy. They bought like crazy. We had our lunch which I forget what it call. hmm... I'm sorry. All I do is eat, and I always forgot to take pictures. Went back to the hotel after the lunch because of both of the master boy don't want to walk already. We rest for awhile and went to Auntie Grace's house for the reunion dinner. Kang join our whole trip. Finally I got the chance to meet grandma. She's not well, but she will do great. We pray for her. The dinner was awesome! We had two bottle of red wine and we were drunk.

Had a walk at the night market with the drunk face and alcohol smell. Went there and look around. Didn't buy anything cause I was really walking and not thinking. Then we decided to went back hotel and get some rest. 

The First Day

I was late today. Technically wake up late and Vince woke me up. Went to the airport and we were crapping all the way. On the flight, I bumped my head and fell down during waiting for toilet vacancy. scare me to hell seriously. Before heading to toilet I was nausea and felt sick. Then a jerk throw up at the toilet sink. Damn it! I almost throw up as well.

And after the torturing 3-4 hours flight finally I get to HK. Checked myself in and went upstairs to walk around. Then mom called and told me that I actually can take the earlier flight to Kaoshiong. WTF!!! This word came out from my mouth and to mom. Haha! I don't care and mom was very kind. She ask me to do the window shopping. How great is her?! Damn!! I could be there earlier and I have to spend 2 more hours sitting here rotten and sucking my starbuck. Well, I shopped. Haha. I bought a fragrance. Cost me around RM240 and I paid by USD. My hands are numb because of the coat and my bag. I am regret to bring this bag which made me very (toh sau lam giok).

The weather isn't that cold actually. I still can handle it. I'm not feeling sick anymore after the shopping spree and starbuck session. I'm waiting for the time to pass fast. It's 241pm, 90 more minutes will be aboard and 170 more minutes will see the mom and siblings! Yay!!!! Can't wait to see them. Hell yea!!