Too Early

Mom came back today. I went to pick her up from the airport. All the way home, we've been talking. She asked if John and I are official, I said yea. She said it's too early. My point is, I'm happy being with him, he makes me happy, why not? Yea, now we don't have to worry about the financial problem or whatever stuff. We are happy cause both of us are still student. Why not let us be? I told mom, is not like I'm gonna marry him now. There are lots of conflict between mom and me. There are lots of different points we have and we don't agree with each other. She been through a lot and I should have listen to her. But, I believe in John. He is not that bad as she said. Yea, it's true! Too early! You are too early to judge someone who are going to have a lot of potential. You just simply judge him from his cover. Just because of those stupid feng shui thing, you said he is not good. I don't believe that. In your eyes, no one is good. I believe in him and I know he is the best, he is changing and proving to everyone now. I will be there to see him change and help him through. He is the one I choose, he is the one I wanted to be with, if we didn't end up together, that's our destiny, that's our choice. I will never regret. You said I don't know how to choose, really? Maybe he is not that good, but that's for now only. You never know how he will become in the future. He just need a guide and experiences. Why not give him a chance to prove? He makes me happy, doesn't it matters? It's not like I'm giving up my study and just focus on him. I did good in my academic, and I am happy now. We support each other, we are happy. That matters! To me, dating is not a bad thing. Whatever people do, you have to comment. When people agrees with you, you said that person don't have his own opinion, when people don't agree with you, you said something else. So, what do you want now? 

John, your letter.

It's happening all over again. Sigh. I think you are over reacted while people are talking. You always assume things, Is like everyone wants something from you. You always think other people are bad, who is the person you think is good? A nerd who always listen to his mom and listen to you? Because he has his master and you think he is good? What you see now is not going to last forever. I know things happens for reason and I never deny something you said were true. The different is, you think that's forever and I think that will changed. You can't always judge a book by its cover. I'm not going to fight anymore, cause I will prove you wrong.

sigh. what a night. I hope hubby is here. I needed his hugs so badly. I think he will need mine as well after reading this. I felt bad for him, I felt bad for my mom as well. Because of me, mom thinks that the man I love is not good enough for me. Because of me, hubby will thinks that mom hates him. I felt like I'm the worst person in the world cause I've hurt their feelings.

Sober

Alright, the previous post was wrote by me when I'm a little bit drunk. Now, I'm totally clear. I slept for only 2 hours and get up. I know this shit will happen! I knew it!I have to have that person with me to keep me sleeping, but too bad he is not here with me. =(

iMac is really heavy duh! Or I've become weaker? I carry it from the office to my rom and my face was red  after that. Seriously. I think I depending on hubby too much. When he was here, he will be the one who carry all those stuff. I miss my boy. I've been happily downloading songs, movies, and stuff from the website hubby gave me. GOSH!!! It's so good that I can watch so many movies. Just finish [Friends With Benefits] This movie was great. I didn't even know Justin Timberlake has such a great body and Mila Kunis, she is petite! They both look perfect together. LOL. The movie is just great! Recommended!!

I'm gonna get myself a desk soon from ikea. I can't put my imac on the wooden square thingy forever or mom will kill me. Got to go to bed now, get up early in the morning and have breakfast with dad. Mom is coming back soon.

Hubby, I miss you a lot. We've been anti social for some time. We need some quality time already. I love you!

I'm So Drunk

As the title, I'm so drunk. Actually, I'm not really drunk but I'm high.  Dad came back and we had dinner together with his newly brought wine. Well, now, I wish hubby is here instead of the house guest. I wish dad is chatting with hubby instead of him. I miss hubby so much and I just read his blog. SO freakin cute. I miss you so much too baby. I wish you are here hubby so I can hug you and talk to you. There will be so much funny stuff I will tell you when I'm almost drunk. I miss you a lot.

吵架后

一样的事情，每一次都要重复就很没意思了。不是吗？今天，是自己最倔的一次。不是故意要闹要斗。只是，有些话说了却听不进。吵架的重点并不是往往不是因为为了那些无谓的事情而吵。是因为态度。我是那种一遇到问题就马上解决，有什么不高兴不愉快就马上讲，当下解决就好了。吵架不翻旧账是很重要的事。有些情侣越吵越了解彼此，有些就根本就不吵，可是一吵就翻旧账。这样就会越吵越凶，越多旧账可以翻。这样又何必呢？如果可以的话，我希望自己的另一半能把问题马上解决。吵架并不事件坏事。当然不吵是最好。情侣之间哪有可能会不吵架？有的是，一个可以包容脾气很火爆的暴龙的傻瓜。这样，怎样都吵不起来。potong steam

我们的秘密

今天颓废了一整天，说要打扫，结果只换了床单而已。还有吵架！明天要珍惜时间，好好利用啦！！

I really thought there's no next time as you've promised sincerely.

But you break it. 

Last Paper.

The day we had our vacation at Lang Tengah

You guys have no idea how much weight I've gain while hubby is back. OMFG!!! Look at the arms. I'm like a pregnant women already. We ate like normal. BUT the only thing that's different is we had supper almost every single night. Seriously. Supper is really the killing machine! Now, I'm so suffering cause I'm on diet. I need to get back my two months ago figure. Tak boleh tahan!!!!!

Tomorrow will be the last day for my final. Yay! After exam will be our after party for the charity event. After that! HOLIDAY!!!! For a week. I can't wait to get my schedule now, so that I can apply for a job at Dr Cafe. 

Hey baby,

I miss you so much. You are coming home tomorrow finally. I miss you a lot. I know you just went off for a few days only, but you know when I couldn't see you, I felt weird. Is like the whole atmosphere doesn't feel right. But, thank god your friend brought laptop along so you can skype with me. Remember to thanks your friend baby!!! Well, after tomorrow I will be busy with the househole stuff. Need to clean up my house or else mom is going to nag me. I was suppose to write a very long post and lock the post up. But, never mind. I lost the feeling already. So that's that. I think I will bring my camera tomorrow and capture my new college fun life. 

Before we left the island

Miss that moment.

I got to continue my study now. Even though is really easy, but still I have to put some effort on it. 

Last Project!

Finally I'm done doing the research book. Can you believe it? I did it in a day! Seriously, the lecturer is going to kill me if she knows about this. I'm going to focus on the exam tomorrow. Hubby is having his camping thingy from today. I mean Wednesday. Until Friday night. I think these few days he will be freaking busy and never ever gonna look at me. =( *drama queen* But he is going to stay outside for a day. You know what? I've been a very good girlfriend for a long time, I won't control this or that. Then, I realized that I start doing/feeling something weird. I don't want my hubby to wear singlet when he is alone, I don't like other female creatures to come near him anymore (except nga tao), I used to be the very generous other half. After he went back, I'm starting to be a control freak. Don't let him eating too much of Gummy Bears, candy bla bla bla. SHIT!!! What's wrong with me!? But I can see that someone is really having fun making me feel jealous. I don't like it. I don't like to be a jealous person. I personally thinks that my hubby is quite attractive to some female creatures. That's why the alert is on. ISH!!!!! No likey!!!!

Anyways, hubby, I miss you a lot. Now that Jeff went into the camp, I'm all alone. (Please ignore the other person in the house). I'm so happy that I'm a very efficiency girl. Today, aunt had been telling me so much things about Amway, and I think I should go for some motivation speech. These days, I felt so demotivate cause you went back to Taiwan, and all I think about was how pity I am. lol. I have to be a better person for you. So, if time is enough for me, I might go to the meeting at night. Alright, I'm off to bed now. I'm so tired. Love you so much!!!

Today's exam was ok. I thought both of them were going to be very hard, but turns out it was pretty easy. So I did okay at the exam.

Last night, I had a nightmare that makes me cried. WTF?! I seldom have this kind of dream as in I'm quite a tough people and I'm not really that fragile and scare of anything except cockroaches. ew... As usual, I wake up and I want to get some warm from the other side, then only I realize he had back to Taiwan. So, I had the nightmare, but I cried because he is not there. I thought he will be there when I had a nightmare. He always do. So thats the story.... I know, wtf right?!

After the exam I went back home and my head start annoys me. Headache la... So, what's app with hubby for a little while and went to bed. He went to see his doctor right after class as he said his neck is killing him. So I can sleep longer while waiting him to come home. By the time he gets back, I'm still napping and never want to wake up even though I saw the message. I was too sleepy and then I fainted for 45 mins. LOL. I still can't really sleep like no tomorrow since hubby is back and waiting for me. BUT. When I got up, he went to sleep. Never mind, my turn to wait. I miss him so much! More than ever. Since he got back, I miss him more and crazy. =(

Gonna start doing my research book now. Tomorrow will fetch Jeff to his camp and be forever alone. 

Exam Week For The 3rd Semester

I'm officially having my exam week now. After hubby boy left, I've non stop doing my final project and also study for my final exam. After this week, it will be my holidays for only 1 week. I am so keen on looking for a job near my house. At Dr Cafe. After this week, I'm going to clean up my house, my room, everything!! Then, I'm going to study about Dr Cafe and ask for the job. Need to have some saving to fly to Taiwan spend time with hubby.

Today was the first day of the exam. It was okay. I don't spend much time on studying this subject, compare with Sunway, this is piece of cake. Seriously, is not me wanting to show off, is their exam only stands 20% to 30% of 100% average marks. And there's not much to read, as the lecturers are so kind to us. =) I got 3 more subjects to go. After tomorrow, 2 subjects in a roll.... I will be free.. for 2 seconds. Cause I need to fetch my brother to the camp and also complete my Contemporary History research book. Yea, the research book has been assigned from the first day of class, now, the last week of class, I don't even look at it yet. Good student.

Anyways, I saw someone is improving himself. He is more aggressive now towards his own life. He wanted to spend his time by doing some meaningful stuff and keep on upgrading himself. For example, sign up for a English Course. This is so good! So proud of him. Non-stop learning new stuff and improving ourself is a really good start. Baby/hubby! I'm so proud of you!!! You are so going to be a better man in the future!!!! Muah muah muah!!! Love you so freaking much!!!!

US

No matter how fun it is, we still have to live our life. I definitely miss our time together, yes, it is hard for now but maybe later our life will be smoother and better. Who knows? I hope so!

Today, I'm going to stay in the house for the whole day cause tomorrow is the final exam week. Also, assignment due date as well. But, if you sees me know, I'm still hanging there and do nothing, no, I do something but in a very slow motion. I'm so lazy. I think I'm love sick now. So, whatever I do, is like not in the mood. Baby suggest a very good idea to me. He said whenever I think of watching movie, we can just share screen and watch it together. LOL. Good idea baby.

This Wednesday I'm going to fetch Jeff to his camp for the National Service. So, the third semester end just like this. How fast is it? Hubby came back and went back. Time pass so fast. Now I'm scared. Freaking out now. I'm force to grow up and handle everything already, not under mom's protection. Soon, I will be leaving from the comfort zone and look for my own way. Now, I wish I could never grow up. sigh.

Alright! I have to stop worrying about all these stuff. Focus on the study and assignment first. Wish me luck!

So, hubby really left to Taiwan already. It's a very hard moment. Cause usually I'm with him all the time. I miss him so much. I was so emotional and I cried all the way from his house to mine. All the way, I was thinking back about the time we were together. What we did. What we said. What we laughed. What we argued. Two months of honey moon, just ends like this. Me no likey. T_T

What I've did today

1. Went to Kota Damansara to collect stuff.

2. Went to Bangsar then Mid Valley then KLCC for a heels.

3. Went to do grocery shopping.

4. Chat with hubby. 

Well, the feeling is like back to December where both of us just fell in love for each other. The feeling is fresh. I think we should have do this more often. LOLOLOL!!! I'm totally kidding. I don't like separating! Even though there are still times we need to do so. It's so hard after spending time longer. Anyways, I hope we will grow stronger and better. I'm so in love with this man.

What I'm Going To Miss

- Your charming smile

- Your hugs
- Your kiss
- Your strong arms that can hold me so tight until I crack my bones. XP
- Your coffee in the morning after I woke up
- Your laugh..

and everything about you. 

I'm Back! Finally.

Well, since the day hubby came back, my blog is start dying slowly. Then it dead! LOL. I'm just kidding. So, I've been skipping our  6th, 7th, and 8th monthiversary posts. Actually, there's quite a lot of things happen during these time. By the day he came back, I was really not used to it. He was so cold. I mean he totally ignored me. Well, he is not in purpose because after I've spend time with him for a whole day, I understand why he ignored me. He was so busy with his family stuff. There are tons of stuff waiting for him to complete and his parents always ask him to do this and that. And during those days, I wasn't really happy cause I really miss him a lot and I couldn't spend time with him. Also during that time, our relationship was still hiding from my side of family. Finally, after meeting more times with hubby's side family, after all the misunderstanding stuff had been explained and solve, mom agreed about us. Yet, she doesn't want me to fall too deep. Anyways. After all the bad days, finally we had our great one. We spent time quality time on a trip to Lang Tengah. We had great moment. We really had learned more stuff about each other. Then, it's the time he leave. On today. A week before, I cried suddenly before sleep. I told him I don't want to cry on the day he leaves. So, I kept my promise on today. I didn't cry. We hugged each other really hard and say goodbye. No kissing cause the parents is here. Too shy to do so. LOL. That wasn't that hard I thought. Then, when we reach home, the parents left for breakfast with other relatives. I was there with his sister and we were talking about him. There's the good and the bad about him. But still he is the guy I fall deeply in love with. I was sitting at the living room chatting with his sis and playing with his dog. Suddenly I went into his bedroom, and that time is the time I start feeling emotional. Cause only then I realize he is really left to Taiwan and no one will hugs me or suddenly hugs me on my back when I was using the laptop. I quickly told his sis I'm leaving and my tear was falling by the time I get on the car. Seriously. I felt so emotional. 

..to be continue. Calling my hubby now.