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什么时候我们可以真正这样生活不用再分开？短暂的相处长期的分开快3年了应该也够了吧？祝全天下远距离恋爱的情侣们终成眷属。这是个长期奋战！

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感触

在外那么久，原来自己的情绪还是很难控制。看着别人掉泪，自己也会忍不住哽咽。 明明就事不关己。或许看到事情发生在别人身上，难以控制的想，如果事情发生在我身上我该怎么办？平时很少沟通的同学最近都走得比较近。因为大家要毕业了，所以都约了出来一起努力为彼此加油。当中知道一位朋友的母亲在她12岁的时候癌症过世。一位朋友的母亲在她很小的时候就离开家里跟别人生活。

我在想，如果是我，我会怎么办？没了我妈我该怎么办？虽说她对我严格，偶尔不可理喻。可是没有她，我能有现在的一切吗？当中还要经历一再被背叛，无能为力探视自己孩子的感觉。一个女人带着三个小孩经历这么多，我可以忍心放开她吗？中国人有一句话叫饮水思源。受过任何人的恩惠就要感恩而不是当成理所当然的。我爱她，就算她再让我难受，我还是会选择保护她的感受。只要过了她这关，我会很感激很感恩加倍奉还。

还有爸爸，虽然我们不是亲骨肉。他依然视我们如己出，把我们都宠上天。他在我的生命里扮演者不可缺少的角色。他总是在背后默默支持我，鼓励我。当我需要意见，他都会引导我。用他的经历引导我，让我步入轨道避开没必要的钉子。那时的我，总是觉得我不碰钉子我不知道痛。不要保护我不让我去尝试。他们知道，有些钉子碰了或许自己就会后悔一辈子，或许会走不出来。所以拼了命都不让我去碰，用“断粮”来逼我妥协。而我真的妥协。因为自己无能咩！ 能怎样？心里知道他们的好意，可是嘴巴却很贱说他们只能用这种方式让我们就范。很多人不懂，觉得我很傻。我知道，可是外人没办法体会我所体会。是谁在我无助的时候拉我一把？是谁把我妈和兄弟带入更好的环境，过我们从来不敢奢望的日子？是谁不怕辛苦，只要有机会就会从芙蓉来到吧生去见我们一个小时？如果这一切的一切可以因为一句话就抵消掉，我不愿意。外人看我是愚孝，而我从来都不觉得我可以把他们为我付出的一切还清。我只能更努力的去爱他们，早日让他们享福。

不好意思，最近情绪波动很厉害。她和他都他很好。我们没吵架。没有为了任何人跟任何人吵。只是觉得很感触。

Photo Shooting For Major

Today is the photo shooting day for my major project. Invited Lara and her boyfriend Azri to help me eat and drink all the food I ordered for my photo shoot. 

So, we've been doing this for almost 3 hours. It was fun and tiring. Get to hangout with the friends and did something interesting. Actually, the most interesting part is later at night.

Excuse for the blurry photo. I was on the move as we as him!!! He came to visit!! Well, this all happen secretly. Even I don't know this. He bought the ticket and email me the receipt. I didn't notice until he laughed and insulting me. I felt bad though cause that time I already told his parents that he is not coming cause his timetable were full and packed. But they changed it again right after I told them. So, instead of pissing the father off, he didn't mentioned anything to neither of us and bought the ticket. My feeling was very complicated. I was happy that he come, I was worried that he don't have enough time. But I seriously happy that he come. LOL

Testing with my new camera Casio ZR-1200. This was recommended by Carina, who's really good and love to selfie a lot. My skin looks flawless with the camera effect, too bad no slimming effect. LOL. 

After playing resting at home for a while, we went out and hunt for food. 

We went to Darling Harbour. Thought of bringing him to Hurricane Grill, but kitchen closed by the time we reached. We bought Mc Donald and Kebab instead. 

Continue playing with the camera! Thanks John for bringing it for me.

Easter Week

Easter break. Good day good mood. One thing in my mind - sleep! Sourced for my products and logo, still pending. But I know it will be done by next weekend. Can't wait for it!! Bought some books from Kinokunya. Bed time reading like I used to do. 

Counting Down The Days

In exact 10 more weeks I am going to finish this course. I will finally graduate from Raffles and leave this school forever. Not to be mean, but the Raffles in Sydney is so much better in KL. I wish this could be over now, but I am facing the difficult moment in my life. Creating website and photoshop. Seriously, this takes time and afford which I am not talented in this area. Why I never have a smarter brain so I can just understand this. Damn it. The whole schedule was so packed with photo shoot session, campaign shooting, source for material and look for printing firm. It's not stress at all but it is definitely a lot to do. Some more, the lecture is giving all of us a hard time. Need to personally talk to the head of the course and see what is going on with him. Unprofessional brat. cheh!

Parents Came Visit

My dad finally had the time to visit, the ticket were originally booked last year to come together with me but the factory was in some sort of changing, so he couldn't leave. One year later, he finally can come, and guess what? It's not because of me, it's because of his work. Yes, work again. Without it, how he can afford all of us? Spent 5 days here, walked around, eat around and get to know my friends. Dad being dad, he brought a lot of food to fill up my fridge, I had trouble clearing it as I have only me to finish all the food. It's so nice that they are here and I had my emotional moment when they left. Before that, mom mentioned something about going to Taiwan. I am still wondering if she meant what she said. Dad had trouble of me going to the Viper Challenge cause he said that I am too old for this. LOL. Well, hopefully I can go back on time for the challenge since I am the one who ask everyone in.