Counting Down The Days

In exact 10 more weeks I am going to finish this course. I will finally graduate from Raffles and leave this school forever. Not to be mean, but the Raffles in Sydney is so much better in KL. I wish this could be over now, but I am facing the difficult moment in my life. Creating website and photoshop. Seriously, this takes time and afford which I am not talented in this area. Why I never have a smarter brain so I can just understand this. Damn it. The whole schedule was so packed with photo shoot session, campaign shooting, source for material and look for printing firm. It's not stress at all but it is definitely a lot to do. Some more, the lecture is giving all of us a hard time. Need to personally talk to the head of the course and see what is going on with him. Unprofessional brat. cheh!

Parents Came Visit

My dad finally had the time to visit, the ticket were originally booked last year to come together with me but the factory was in some sort of changing, so he couldn't leave. One year later, he finally can come, and guess what? It's not because of me, it's because of his work. Yes, work again. Without it, how he can afford all of us? Spent 5 days here, walked around, eat around and get to know my friends. Dad being dad, he brought a lot of food to fill up my fridge, I had trouble clearing it as I have only me to finish all the food. It's so nice that they are here and I had my emotional moment when they left. Before that, mom mentioned something about going to Taiwan. I am still wondering if she meant what she said. Dad had trouble of me going to the Viper Challenge cause he said that I am too old for this. LOL. Well, hopefully I can go back on time for the challenge since I am the one who ask everyone in. 

Midnight Pillow Talk

It's almost end of March. Time pass so fast I couldn't catch up. Too little time to deal with too much stuff work loads are crazy because I've been taking it for granted. How's the life? For me it's all good untill my boyfriend created a hot mess. It's all because of a normal chat from home. Drama will never ends and things are showing out, people are slowly revealing their true color. People are watching and I'm thinking bout what's next. It's unfair to judge to be honest. I felt sorry for both parties, hopefully they'll learn this time. Sometimes I think I should have just leave it but sometimes it's just over limit I couldn't take it. I don't mind him being called not generous or not easily to forgive but please don't drag the religion stuff in.

But anyways, 2 more weeks I'm done with this term. But this time I'm not going back to Malaysia because I want to stay back and do my stuff. The subject is ending soon I can't believe! We talked about work and other stuff for our future life. I don't know if I am ready for it or not. Feels like everything come too soon and I am worry and excited in the same time. 

Can't wait for the graduation!

Write my life 2

So I choose Fashion Marketing for my second diploma while everyone is taking their degree courses. Did I regret? Yea. But, I'm happy to be involved in this field somehow. Maybe I'm just regretted with the school I choose. But anyway, I meet John around that time. It is still the best time of my life. There are ups and downs and the were broken parts and we somehow fixed it. Year 2011 taught me a lot. After I spend my 17 months in Raffles KL, I wanted to go to FIDM the school I always wanted to go in USA to continue. But always the Visa. One thing I knew was, if I did get my visa and left... me and John will not be together. So, I accepted the thought of [If it is meant to be, it will be.] 

Spend some time in Malaysia after graduated and packed my stuff to Australia Raffles. The only thing in my mind when I got rejected was [Screw this shit and I want to get over it ASAP!] So, I got back to Raffles and registered for Sydney campus. Now that I'm in Sydney, I am living a good life that everyone gets jealous of. I am very blessed that my parents are willing to spend this kind of money on me. Well.. I have nothing to say. 

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The moment (in my primary school) I saw him, I thought he is a very cool, good looking, attractive, cute, and I couldn't forget his voice. I can't describe but his voice is like Mickey mouse. Yes! Definitely Mickey. That kind of voice like can't get out of his throat. LOL. But that was when he is a little boy. I had my memory of him when I was in my standard 6/ year 6/ level 6. He was at the next class of mine. The funny thing is I couldn't remember he got spank by the principal every assembly time. I really don't have the memory. Only things I remember was he will always walk pass when we were lining up outside of our classroom before everything started. I don't know what kind of feeling is that. Obviously not love, because I am 12 what the heck did I know about love?

In my secondary school, I was in a government school. Nothing interesting happen. Oh, if my parent's divorce count, then there was. Second year I was forced to go to the school where Jeff went in Klang. That school is really small which has less than 500 students. 60% of the students were staying in hostel including me. We basically knew everyone and especially I was a transfer student and that was a popular topic when me and Carrie appeared on the same year. Then the second year when I was in Klang, he got in. I was very happy to see him. But he doesn't. Well from what I see and feel, he doesn't ok?! LOL. He only talk to the girl, which happens to transfer into the same school the same time with him. I talked to him said hi, he gave me the cold shoulder. Yea, I was disappointed and never talk to him anymore. Since then, I got all the news from other friends that he got bullied all the time. Actually, I did asked those bullies why do they do this to him. All I got is, he was very arrogant and they don't like the way he behave. But still, that time I was still attracted by him. He was really good in sports, he always got award in sports day. I was in team Green and I can't remember which team he was in. Green or Yellow. (He said we were in the same team) All I can remember that things could related to him that time was, athlete, running, volleyball (?), hostel, being bullied, Mickey mouse voice, good looking, the way he walk, and then I left Klang to Muar. We lost contact since then. 

He found me when I was in my last semester of my business course. The don't-talk-to-me moment cause I was having a hard time for my break up with an asshole. LOL. We talked for a bit and I kinda hide from him for 2 months. Maybe it is really meant to be. The old memories all get back to me and I was surprise that he wanted to talk to me. Cause the last time, he act like an asshole to me. But we had really good time talking. That's how we started. It was like yesterday and I never thought long distance relationship can last that long. 3 freaking years and counting. 

Now, we are in another stage of life when we decided to make everything official and serious. So..... that is another chapter of our life and I am still thinking to share it anymore or not. 

Write my life

I can't believe it's March 2014 already. 10 years ago I was just transferred to Chung Hwa High School in Muar. I had my braces on and I was somehow like a creature to them because I came from the big city, I had my braces on, I have the cantonese slang, I speak english, I played 24 seasonal drum, and I was so quiet and look smart to them before everyone get to know me well. Well..... after then know me, they were all agreed that my look and first impression fooled them. I am the crazy one, I am dare devil, I could beat a guy up if he step on my territory and I am the buddy.

Remember Friendster? Oh my gosh!! That was the funniest moment ever. Friends were added from all over the countries. You can look at the viewed record to see who stalked your profile. LOL. You can have all the chats, customise your profile with all these theme and make it as fancy as you can. I think in 2006 I found John there, but I didn't add him as friend. I still remember his profile picture. He was wearing a black singlet with his lame "yeah" pose and that moment, the 'number' pose were the most popular pose. Anyways, there goes my 3 wonderful high school year in Muar. Oh, during my Senior Middle Year 2, mom wanted to transfer us to Shanghai, Johnny did get his but unfortunately, me and Jeff didn't. That's the first time I saw mom cried. She hugged me so tight and cried, that's how a mom feel to have to be apart of her children when she is so helpless. The reason we couldn't get in is, we were taught in Mandarin for years, and the International school worried that we couldn't catch up, also the age, it's kinda hard for us to learn more as we basically fixed. That time I was 17 and Jeff 18. So, we went back to school in Muar.

After graduate, we went to Shanghai for good. Mom wants me to stay together get my Uni there, and I was the rebel one. I don't like Shanghai, I don't want to stay. I am a westernise girl at that time. All I want is go to a western country and study there. So, I wanted to be in the Hotel industry that time, cause I want to be a hotel mogul. LOL. I even named my corporate Fox Palace. LOL. I know it's really stupid and funny. I kinda planned my whole life when I was in high school. Well, there was an opportunity and I did my research on Hotel Management. Dad asked 'why not go to Switzerland as they have the most amazing Hotel management course there?' I was surprise that he said that, because mom and dad were not happy with the thought of me working in the service industry. But he was so supportive and ask a lot of information from his friend who was the manager in Hilton Shanghai. Then, when everything was set, dad said I have to go to USA to work on my English before I fly to Switzerland. I was so thrilled and I agreed with whatever dad said.

So, pack my back and USA it is. That was my first time to a western country. Feb 2007 during Chinese New Year. You know what? When I got there, I told dad, 'maybe I'm just gonna stay here and take business course. I like it here. I don't want to leave.' That's why I am so obsessed with USA. I stayed in LA for 1 month and flew to Portland Oregon for 2 months. That was the best time of my life living alone and live like a big girl. Then, visa went wrong and too much drama and stayed back in KL, took a business admin course in Sunway. It's my best uni life too, too much fun compares to work. LOL. Met my amazing babi(s) and we are stuck together ever since. When everyone continue their degree, I decided to change my path. I wanted something more fun, business was too bored for me. I took Fashion Marketing.

(to be continue)

Random Updates

First report done! Two more to go!! I am in love with Dayre and I updated there more than update here and even Facebook or Instagram. So, actually I was just ready to go to bed but I don't know why I open this and start typing. What am I going to write about this time? It's really random. Maybe we can talk about plan. 

Me and John we planning on something. Big and fun and surprise. This plan is not going to happen soon but it will happen. What is it? Not going to tell, because I don't like being copy by others. LOL. It's not a big deal to be copy by others actually. But I do mind somehow when you make it too obvious. Other friends said maybe there's another Hillary Wannabe. (Because I am perfect.) NAH! Thick skin me. 

These few days, John wants me to say our prayer together. So I did. And I like it. This is making me calm and peace. Even though I just slam w a few days ago. But I do felt bad because no one deserve this. So what if she really did it. If I am big hearted, I wouldn't mind at all. So, shame on me. 

It is always easier and productive when you have your goals set. I can't wait till the day come so me and John can make things happen. 

毁灭感情的不是距离，而是怀疑

那个晚上我心血来潮把男朋友写的东西翻完出来细细品尝一番。读回他在还没跟我在一起的生活，追我的那个阶段，在一起的那个时候，到现在。我们两个一起回味，然后嘲笑彼此的肉麻噁心。不可否认，这个人是很用心的在经营我们的感情。虽然有时候他会让我想十几脚踹死他。他还是很可爱。他说他不喜欢读长篇大论的文章，可是，他却可以写了很多篇长篇大论的文章。他在这3年里，让我看到什么是坚持坚定。带我看我没看过的人事物，找来很多人告诉我要收敛我火爆的脾气。哈哈哈！我还笑得出，一点羞耻心都没有。

看了那么多，我的心情当然会被影响。高低起伏，很幸福，很［美送］，很搞笑的统统都有。因为文章里的主角是我，看着看着我就会开始在一边哀怨的释放出怨气，然后说一些没意义的话。这些没意义的话包括［你变了！］［做么你没有再这样对我了！］［做么你这样不浪漫了的！］等等。我不是故意的也是故意的。两个人在一起久了，习惯了，当然就会懒了。不过我知道他的心里是有我的，只是因为在一起久了，就会expect我知道所以不用一直告诉我。

我们的约法三章，讨论以后以后以后，我知道他是那种不喜欢讨论以后的人，因为他还没做出成绩不想让我失望。他也知道当我说以后，他的配合会让我安心。所以他说［把你的以后今天一次说完！然后让我敲碎］他可以陪我说以后，以后要怎样，要做什么；大家说得天花乱坠，引导我说得更远然后再叫我［是时候回来了］

给你的信：

我希望我们以后再怎么忙，我们每个星期都要到佛堂去上课帮忙。谢谢你耐着性子陪伴我。我觉得我也很厉害，因为你也很难搞。我知道我们的以后会很难过很辛苦不能过的像现在一样，可是我知道这种难过辛苦只是一小段日子而已。我也希望我［变脸］的功力可以慢慢降低到没有，让你往后的日子过的更开心。到现在我还是很感恩你把我带入你的生活。认识了那么多人。谢谢你家人的支持我们才能够继续。那是的我以为没了你，我的日子还是这样过。可是，有你的日子才是最开心的。只是压力的关系，不够磨练承受不了所以才会放弃。也是因为不想放弃物质生活，就像你说的那样，所以我才那么在乎。那天我们说的话我都答应你。我们会好好过我们要的生活。谢谢你听我说我心里的话，谢谢你对我的毕业作品的支持。这些对我来说有你的肯定是最重要的。我爱你。

Love,

Hill